Hi...
Edit my entry again... Today is so not an exciting day... Fuck those bitches who're tryin to make my life n my frens hell... Fuck off yar...? Okie, too much to say, too lil time... Life's goin wrong... Dunno which part.. All seem messed up.. Didn't see his adek today though durin hmt... Haha... Haix... Wanna tell him sometin but too afraid lar... I mean it's just one simple thing but everytime wanna say it, i get so nervous dat i back out... Haix... wth... Every1's life seems to be gettin so into shape, but mine is fallin apart... Haix.. Niwae, got my new hp.. 7260 baby.. It rocks yaw.. Haha... Luv it.. K, i'll stop here...
Byez....

Ask frm me my new no. aitez??? =)

Helo..
Life's so slow today.. So tired.. Band had to march... Was cool... Luv saturdays... The same thing happen, but got to familiarise wit the sight of u 2 togeda, so won't care ya.. Nothin to say.. Just wanna shut up.. Haix.. Life so far is so slow, n moody.. Wanna change it soon... My parents say dat i've gone quiet lately.. Hahs.. True meh? Maybe.. I tink so... Too much to say but dunno who to talk to... Hope to talk to 1 of my frens soon, let everythin out den, yeah, hopefully, everythin's gonna be fine... Gettin my fon tmr, but dun tink i can get the fon i want cos i spent alot of my saved money already... Hehe... Suddenly miss spendin time wit someone i really like... Haha.. wth... K lah, i'll stop here, wanna do hmwk...
Byezz...

Helow..
Hahs.. Haven't been updating for awhile yar... Sorry.. Life's not really changing... N haf i told i luv my frens.. Yeah.. All of dem... Even iz, sometimes get me so angry bout somethings, u noe, she's alwaes der when u need her... Zin, dat "mk nenek", she's cool to be wit.. Same goes to yana and fathin.. Thanx a million k...
Skool today was ok... Lessons weren't dat boring.. N i'm hoping against hope dat i pass my science test... Haha.. Saw him a few times.. Things are gettin way apart.. I dunno y... Dun wanna talk bout it... Afta skool hang out wit my frens... So sorry to iz if i made u angry... N i ACCIDENTALLY cried over him, while talkin to dem bout him.. Zin, let's just hope our rival dun get far wit her scheming attitude... Let's make a wish for her...
Wishing:".... -Amin..." (Hope it comes true)
Dotz.. Haha.. So miss hangin out togeda.. Went to Causeway, window shoppin, n bot a prezie for ismail.. Ismail??? Is dat dat guys name? I tink so.. Haha.. To much Is's in the world.. Dotzz... Had fun today..
Did i mention i already found his bro... Yar, saw him durin hmt.. Not bad at all.. Haha.. We were so weird cos i wanted to confirm his name.. Hahs... I tink he's a lil taller though..
Band on tuesday suck big time...! A few things happen n i was totally not in the mood... Was so damn pissed wit dat 2 blardy DUMBO..! So many diff, types of feelings to so many types of diff peeps... Thanx to azimah n navya cos u all noticed me when i was "un-noticed".. Hahs...
Curently, life's not followin the direction i want.. Dotzz.. Let's just concentrate on studies aite... K, all for now..
Byezz...

Special thanx to: Asyraf, Shafiq, Zin, Liyana, Izzati, Fathin, My mom...

Hi...
I've finished half my hmwk..! Yeah!! *applause* I so want to get better in my studies... I'm not gonna be like last year... Dotz... Even if gettin humiliated, stayin back so late, i dun mind, as long as i improve... I'm takin small steps lar... Can't beleive i pass up all my science wkshts.. Haha...! Maths still sucks in my opinion... N i've aim for wat course i wanna take next year... My mum says she wants me to get into triple science class.. Who doesn't..?? Dotzz... Hahs... Wish i can, but i noe my standard is not ard der... Hahs.. But who noes, if god permits, i might just get into dat class.. Haha.. Listening to taufik again.. He so rocks...! N i tink i'm gettin over him.. Yeah! Wanna concentrate on my studies.. Hahs.. Let's see whether i suceed ya...
Toodles... ;)

Hi..
Listening to One Last by Taufik again.... Whee.... ~one last dance to our 1st song, while pretending der's notin wrong...~ Hehe... Yeah, it's beta if I just let it go... Dotzzz... Niwae, ytd got $8... So little... N ytd also, found out he got younger brother takin hmt... ahakz.. U noe wait i'm tinkin rite...??Haha.. Cannot get the brother get the adek also can lah... Haha.. No lah, jk,jk...

So had band... Met azimah, n she was unhappy bout someone still smokin.. Haha.. Kept callin him asshole.. lol! Wasn't late but dat blardy jenn say we late.. N den durin fallin in, she say i laugh so loud... WTH!!! I didn't even smile larh.. stooooopid asshole...!!! go to hell lar... Band was so slacking... Haha.. Mr Chew got stress up i guess.. N den dat blardy jenn wanted to xchange places wit my section so now, i can't like really see him larh... den dat place like can see him clearly talkin to her n den like later i get jealous... argh!!! stupid u noe.. den the cornets like play so loud... I SO HATE JENNIFER!!!!!!!! Afta band, went to Mcdonald... So full.. Went back alone, den kept thinkin bout him... wth... So i tink dat's it.. Wanna do my hmwk... *wink*
Byez...

Never knew how long
A loving flame could burn
But losing you has forced me to learn
That we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know its better if we just let it go...

one last chance...????

Hello.......
Man, taufik's so cute... Luv his One Last... Meaningful rite?? Haha... ~so let's have one last kiss, one last touch...~ Hehe... It's the mornin... Waitin for my slow cousins to come... Dotzz... Finally manage to put up a song..! Yeah! *applause* Hahs... Wat a nice day... =p ~everytime t try to make a stand at all, i see ur face again n i fall...~
Bye...

Baby if we met

each other in a different sky

Maybe den things

wud be much beta between us

We cud alwaes hold on

to this one special thing we share

But it'll be too much for us to bear...

wish i had one last chance wit u...

Heloww...
Manzz.. So damn tired... Hmwks ain't gettin better... Maths too... E.T sucks... Dotzz.... Didn't do much today... Afta skool, laze ard skool... Man ~he's so darn cute!! Saw ~him outside skool jst now... Haha... He looks so cute wit his tshirt n jeans n cap... Manzz, looked so hot n cute...!!! *melts* Hehe.. N got 2 bucks frm asyraf.. Ma 1st banker... Haha.. The other 1 shafiq... Haha... Went back n den saw dis gal carryin the hp dat i wanted... Been thinking bout it n how to save $20 in 2 days... Haha... Hope tmr get money... Den dat'll complete my $100 dat i need.. Yeah...! K, so i tink dat's it...
Byez...

~make me ur selection...~

Hi...
My keyboard is so darn weird... haha..
K, let's start... Lessons was darn boring.. Manzz, i begin to luv maths but den i dun understand A LOT of things... I'm still stuck wit standard form n compound interest... Dotzzz... N my test is next tues... Shutss...! I just dun want to end up losing interest in it... I'm so in need of help in someone who is capable of helpin me... Yep...! Really in need...! Den lit was so not fun, n i ended up sleeping through eng lessons... Onli woke up when wanted to say thank you to the teacher... Haha.. The 1st time i sleep in class.. N dat stoopid Nicholas didn't wake me up...! Haha... N summore i was sittin rite at the back n mrs wong was just right behind me... Dotzzz... Haha... But niwae had a goooooood sleep... Den HMT was abt to sleep again but luckily my frens were der to perk me up... Dat darn teacher is so bias... Lucky shes better den the other teachers i had... So sarcastic towards the swiss ppl... N now i'm home... So tired but in desperate need for help in maths! Yup, doin hmwk..! *beams* N yar, i written a very nice n swit poem bout relationships... *wink* Dotzz... Haha, did it durin science... So dat's it for today... Put up my poem later... hehe...
Byezz...

Hi
Skool was darn tiring,,, niwae if u're wonderin y i'm usin ",",dat's b'cos my fullstop key is spoit,,, hahakz,,, PE lessons are gettin boring day by day,,, Hate it man,,, Maths is goin at such a slow pace,,, Gd for me lar actuali but it's gettin to darn boring,,, Me beginning to luv maths manz,,, N yeah! The test is postponed to nxt wk,,, YEAH!!!!! I'm still blur at compound interest,,, Dotzz,,, Haha,, Niwae afta skool had a great time wit liyana,,, we rock! Haha,,, She loiter ard wit me everywhere n we did had a lot of fun togeder,,, Thanx for makin my day! Den had band,,, Dotzzz,,,, Wat can i say? Urrmm, tirin? Yeah,,, N heard the 2007 SYF piece,,, Not nice lar,,, Too jazzy??? Haha, yar n alot of repetitons,,, ALPHA still rocks! Hehe,,, ain't puttin anyting bout him,,, hehe,,, Den went back wit azimah,,, We're beginning to be very open,,, Haha,,, So i tink dat's it,,, Off to do my hmwk,,, It's callin for me to do dem,,, ahakz,,, alrighty den,,,
Byez,,,

~~~It's compromise dat moves us along~~~

Helo...
I am so tired... Hehe.. Ytd went to national stadium.. Whoots.. i salute s'pore man.. Had a great time der... Man.. I haf had enuf of tsunamis.. Eng period do dat topic, HMT also do dat topic... Bleahs.. Den both haf to do reflection... I was running out of ideas... Niwaes, discussed the problem wit fathin today.. We seriously dunno how to a settle it.. Tmr haf band... Dotss... Shud i go?? Shud i not go??? After all the sec1s are comin in.. n i haf 1 junior for now... Dunno how to face him... Shuts... Off to do my hmwk... Wat a simple day... =p
Byezz...

Hi..
Haix.. Feelin so stressed up... Duno y, everytin just came suddenly... Sheesh.. Wat the hell is his *blardy farking problem*??? Infront of me he act like he doesn't gif a damn, onli exchange smiles den when i hear frm other ppl, dey all say wat how he acts is not actuali wat he feels.. So like wat the hell do i do??? Continue liking u or dun gif a *mother fuckin damn* bout u... Do u noe it HURTS?!!! HURT! Yes, hurt... If u dun like me den u *blardy freakinly* avoid me arh... Dun make me haf high xpectations on u... Like wat u did last time... U gaf me mountains of memories to keep but den u expect me to forget it just like dat... wtf! u tink easy is it.. Obviously u dunno the feeling rite??? The *blardy feeling* suck k... Stop all those nosense like goin ard n tellin ppl bout me den those ppl come to me n den add more stress.. Yes i appreciate dat at least dey tell me, but u tink i dun haf feelinghs is it??? U noe wat is embarassment or not??? Noe wat is humiliation or not??? I'm seen like a *blardy idiot* der waitin for u like hell... If u dun like me, fine... Not a problem... Den just tell me straight to my face so i won't like u anymore... Make ur mind clear of ur options lar.. Dun make ppl hurt until every damn second dey think bout u... Nvm, let's drop the topic... Yes, saw him durin band.. Den suddenly everyting come back.. I duno wth is the farkin prob wit me.. I myself dunno whether i'm mad or dissapointed at him... Dat's it...
Bye...

Manzz... So damn tired... Had the sec1 cca orientation... The sec1's are all so choosy... Got a bunch to try out the instruments, den when see the the tuba, dey dun want to try, see the drumset, dun want to try, see the saxaphone, dun want to try.. Den end up all the instruments cannot play... Stupid rite??? But den again got dis sec1 kid he's so cute... We saw him den ask him whether he wants to join band den he eagerly said yes... Man, he's so darn cute... Like p4 kid like dat... Niwae, der were a couple who already had the thought of quiting the band if dey dun like it... So had a HARD time telling dem dey won't regret it... Overall, it was damn tiring... Walk2, like a crazy women.. Wah, den try alot of instruments, miss not tryin the saxaphone.. N i'm in love wit the MALLETS[sp?]!!!! The sound so cool... Hehe... Whee... Spent like loads of time wit him cos fyi, he didn't noe how to play dat thing! Hahs, but seriously, was a nice playin dat thing... Den crap ard wit justin, he's so darn lame..! Den went back wit azimah again was late cos she INSISTED on taking the bus, dunno y... Haiz, if not can see him lar... Hehe.. Read each other's hp, n luckily she didn't see the special msges which i saved... *phew*

Next, frens... Sheesh... Just found out sometin abt one of my frens... Shan't reveal who... Niwae, do u noe how hurt i am seein u alwaes goin ard wit her?? U urself noe dat i dun like her rite, but y keep bein so closed... I tot u were just plain normal frens, but no... I had to find out myself dat u meet her every mornin, go back wit her togeder.. Man, it hurts so damn much... N den when i ask u bout her, u said dat u were just frens, not BEZ FRENS... Like wth... U noe dat i hate her n how i alwaes damn her bein wit us, but u still continue... The reason y i alwaes act mean towards her b'cos i dun want her wit u... I admit, it IS jealousy... U happi now??? Every time when u negelect me, n go ard wit her, i feel so teriblly sad, but i just had to keep quite cos i noe if i speak up, i'll end up fightin wit u... I hate the way she comes between us n den pour all her problems to u... I hate it... I noe dat's just ur character... But i'm so hurt noeing dat der's sometin between u 2 n i dun noe bout it... Hurt... Dat's how i feel... I noe i'm bein a bit sellfish but i want u to noe, dat it reali reali hurts to see u togeder... I dun want to get angry cos i dun wanna lose someone so nice like u, but how do i hide dis burning agony of seeing u wit her everytime... I really feel like i'm losing a fren... I dun wanna lose u cos u're the onli i can click wit but pls understand how i feel... I still rmb dat time when u left me alone when i really needed u to talk u but u left cos she was offerin a free taxi ride... wth... It feels like she was like tryin to steal u away frm me... Sheesh... Haiz, haf to just forget bout it...
Byezz...

Helow..
Whee... Feelin so urrm, nice???
Yeah, nice is the word... Man, i luv my frens..! Today, since it's like our ONLI free day every week, we decided to go to my house... Yeah! 1st house for 2005... Whee... We had LOADS of fun since all of us were there... Man, we rock..! 1st we ate to our heart's content, den we jiwang2, den afta dat we decided to make "trademarks" for our clique... Cool eh...? So far we created 3... We are lookin forward to find another 2 more... Wheee... So fun... I'm thinking of making t-shirts for us... Style rite....? Hehs.. Niwae, had a GREAT time... Planning to complete ALL my incomplete assingnments... I'm soooooo lacking behind... Ish... Must buck up liaoz... N in skool, HE talk to me... Whoohoo... He's soooo freakin FRIENDLY.....! ahakz... N tmr haf band... Whee... It feel like ages since the last time i had band.... Haha... Btw, my family are goin to the Tiger Cup finals dis Sunday... Whee... I'm gonna wear red manzz....!! Well, i tink dat's it...
Byezz....

Harlow...
Alright den... I haven't update for some time rite...? Hahs... Was darn busy n i tink someone keep hacking into my account and sometimes the templates just dissapear.. Funny rite... So took time to redo... Gonna put pics when i really haf the time... It's not like really ready yet... Niwae... Loads haf been happening... School's just average... Just the way i like it... Onli sometimes the teachers are to fast... Or, is it dat i'm just tooo darn slow..?? Hehe... But still can cope lar... N i luv my frens man... They're are becoming so more hilarious... We laugh until we cry sia somtimes... Haha... Life for everyone of us is like the same... A balance of GOOD things and bad things... So it's cool... Woah... But i tink the luckiest among us currently is Zin... Man, she's darn lucky, but dun put ur expectations too high k darl, later become like me... *sobs* hehe... No lar, just kiddin... Band's great... Blah, blah, blah... I do agree our standard has drop but i tink we'll prove ourselfs worthy... =) Relationships.... Oh well, currently notin hot... Still not sure whether i like him.... N as for the other one stop bein sellfish arh... Ppl got thier own lifes to take care bout... I cannot take care bout u all the time... Understand lar... Well, niwae, i tink dat's it... N yar btw, yesterday, HE sent me back home... Whee.... Cool eh... He's darn nice lar... Haiz.. If onli........ Haiz, nvm... All for now..
Byez...

Helo..
Had band, was late, but escaped frm punishment... Cool eh?? Haha... Was darn boring... Sects., full band, didn't play apha... BORED! N i've realise dat i still do like him... I'm not able to deny it... Yeah, it hurts... But i dunno y i still cling on to him... Haiz... Forget bout it... Gtg... Hope Singapore wins tonite!!! Best of luck RED LIONS!!
Byezzz....

Helo..!
K,k... Not been updatin 4 quite somtime... I've been darn bz n now i finally, n i mean FINALLY haf the time to update! Yeah.. Loads to write... Since i can sleep late tonite, so write long2 k??
Let's see...
1st day:
Found out Mr Seng was our form teacher... Whoots... He's cool but a lil lame ah... But niwae, the most surprisin thing is dat i was selected as the class moniteress! Hahs... Can u beleive dat... Me n Jun Yang are like now head of the class comitee.. Cool eh?? But niwae, so far, i think both of us r doin well... *beams*.. Lessons continued like normal... Ms Kaur is our lit teacher, Mr wong is our maths, Mrs Constance Wong our eng. teacher n i tink the rest is the same... So far not bad...
2nd day:
It was stressful k... Had to like settle class things a lot... So stress... But got use to it... Had band afta dat... was fun lar.. Went back wit feroz n azimah... He, very swit sia... Yeah, talk alot bout him, n yeah, u gess it, feroz, noes bout it... Darn... Niwaes itwas great...
3rd day:
Like normal, stress again... But it was fun.. There was hmwk... So slept like quite late...
4th day:
Damn Miss Kaur.... She complained to Mr Seng dat all the malay gals was sittin togeder n she thinks dat we're racists..! Wat the hell... Was so pissed, n so we had to change places n i end up sittin beside Nic.. He's a great dude man.. He helped me alot in studys n esp. abt all those class thingies... Thanx dude...! N yeah, he told me one secret n i end up tellin my secret to him... Cool eh?? All thnx to Miss Kaur... MuAhAAHa...
Today..:
Same thing... But had band... N 4 the same reason, i'm still pissed... Y does he haf to go ard tellin ppl bout us??? Sto0o0o0o0opid... Niwae, went back wit azimah... We really can click u noe... N shes great lar... Or mayb shes a great help to me... Haha... She tell me LOADS bout him, n i wanna noe more... Hahaha....
N so, dat's it.... Bein a monitress ain't simple man... Wit teachers chasing went ur other classmates dun hand in hmwk, the responsibility to collect work, be a role model n many more... Stress... But i tink bein a monitress will help me alot cos now i haf to hand in my hmwk promtly n must neva fail any tests cos lata paisey sia... Hehe... Let's take dat as a resolution for dis year... K, so dat's it... N i may not be updatin regularly... Dat's it...
Byezzzz.....

Helo!!
Hehe.. It's like the 4 mins into the 2nd day of new year... Haha, was into my homework durin the 1st day, so wasn't able to update... Hehe, last minute do everytin... As alwaes, dat's my routine... Niwaes, new year, spent time wit my family... Whee... Able to forget bout him already... Now i realise, he sux..! Hehe... He was the reason i wasn't able to apreciate things dat was infront of me... Bloody asshole... *evil grins* I really hope dis new year is all bout frens, studies n family... Notice boys is outta my list...??? Hehe, how i wish dat cud really happen... K, suppose to be findin my homework stuff... So gtg... Haf a great 2005... N yeah, Swiss Winds will rock 2005... Hehe..
Byez....