ok. im like finally updating.
and its only cos i really dunno where else i can pour out my feelings.
wtf.

im tired of catching fantasies that non-existent.
i ever went thru dat period whereby i felt so low and broken. and to be only able to get thru dat feeling after almost 2 yrs, i feel so happy, exhilarated, everjoyed. watever the fuckin word is.
but today, to only see myself go back to the old stage,
it just SUCKS.
i dunno whether u still care.
i dunno whether u still want this as much as last time.
im tired of u PRETENDING dat u dunno wat's happening.
tired of u pretending that everything will be ok sooner or later.
tired of every god damn thing.
3 days of almost no communication at all, and u still didn't gif a damn.
god damn it. i miss the old times.
i badly need someone to talk to before i go crazy.
ah.

history repeats. ):