hello.. well, dont really havf much to blog abt. ytd had band. den went home straight. tired lah. den think i sep t all the way. today morning, wake up den go mosque. help out some stuff. hehkz. dpt pahale tau. den went causeway. den afta dat went home, slack ard, clean room and till now still havent finish, and help mum wash the ketupat leaves. phew! tired sia. but nvm. all for my mummy. hehs. k nar. dunno wat else to write. byezz..


-ard one year ago, it began... *memories.

- a declaration of independance....... s o o n.

okie. i'm back. got back results. -.- fail maths. damn la. dunno how to tell dad. on the other hand got into pure hist. yayness. but i the only malay gal leh. damn. the rest all boys. argh. nvm. must learn to be independant and make frens fast2. hah. n to tink my class nxt yr is wit bio students leh. haix. must work hard so wont be paisey infront of dem. nxt year must realli concentrate lar. cant afford to fail maths nimore. my class is 3E4 ya.. n i'll realli miss 2e5. all of us must work hard. i luv dis class a lot lar. haix. will miss dem. niwae, today was okie. talk a lot wit yana. haix. dun wish to say wat we talk about. just dat reallly sad-ed. hahs. went back ard 4. went out again to cosway. met mum. went cosway. bought hari raya things. went back, go terawih den here i am lar. boring sia. k la. dunno wat else to write. hope dad comes back wit food. aites den. stop here. tmr got band. argh. kk. byezz..

; gave u everythin n u threw it all away.

wat im goin to say on the next paragraph realli wont mean anythin to u guys. so skip dis entry ya. dun even bother reading it. but if u read it, DUN ASSUME u know wat happen cos it might be sooo very wrong.


so wat happen today was bad. who cares. niwae, fyi, i dun care bout u. i dun even wanna try doing dat again cos it's realli no use. ur just egoistic and sellfish. so wat for? so ur fuckin angry bout the msgs, so u tink i'm not bout hers. tink lar bout my feelings can? stop being the "me, myself and i" kinda person. u ask me to tell u wat i dun like, n when i tell, u dun even change, so again, wat for? just now, i was the one who was suppose to be the one unhappy. i just dun get it. y u like dat? nk tunjuk perasaan abeh jadi mcm retard. -.- wat u tryin to tell me lar. haiz. wanna go back wit her so much right? go lar. see whether i care or not. slenge jek pompan tu. hah. oh, ur slenger too! hahs. dun wanna contact me? dun lar.. see whether i'll miss u or not. someone like u, alot outside. so at least can pick the more handsome one. argh. fuck. dun wanna continue.

k ar. no use talkin bout dat thing. stop here. byez.


;its time like dis, i realli miss ur presence.

-and now again we're at the end of the road. *where's the raindrops?

ooh weee.. haha. i'm bored uh. haix. HL didnt beleive i was at msia on sat. damn. wanna check my passport?? grr.. niwae, today was fun i guess.. haha. tiring though. haix. i'm in love wit billabong the wallet. nice2!! haha. tink tmr wanna go buy. heex. the maths test just now was dumb. -.- hah. didnt even bother to do most of it. wahas. after walking all ard, met dear2. hahs. heck. it was fun. but no lar. tink we can be happier. is it me?? ooooh.. haha. i shall improve. niwae, hari raya comin!!! who wanna help clean my room?? 10 bucks per hour. haha. common. dial dis no. ya if u want the job: 1800-call-yati. wahas. anyone gettin dumber??? haha. k lar. gtg. ~byezz..

; get right.

hah. ok2. things so far so gd. contented. dats it. hah. today help mom make kueh raye.. hah. n i cook! i cook LAKSA! get dat ppl! i cook. =) den wasted time n den it was buke time. den go terawih den now i'm here. basically just chatting and hearing music. oh ya. hows the song? nice? haha.. k la.. dunno wat else to write. tmr got the fuckin test. damn. everybody can sleep but we? stuck doin MATHS! urgh. like pissin me off lah can.. haha. k ar. byez..! =)

when everythin is just not right.

urgh. hate dis feeling. i'm feeling sad dunno why sia. haiyo. hate the damn feeling cos later den remeniscent on the past. stupid. gosh. my exam result suck big time! i wanna die sia. all slack like hell. maths fail again. argh. if nxt yr gt combine science, i wanna take. cant take the stress frm double sciences later n stuff. i fuckin didnt expect my overall result for maths was DAT poor. damn it. hate myself lah.. guess wat? had band afta school. kept thinkin wat happen one year ago. i wont start la. its for me to know ony. hah. but didnt get dat matter rule my head. lucky got azimah make joke n stuff. hahas. k la.. gtg. byez..


*i wish those stares cud be turn into smiles dat u thought me before.

-this is me. what i was born to be. =)

whee..! haha. camp was terrific!!! haha. take back all my words when i said i dun wanna go camp! haha. lets start grandma story k?? haha.

1st day really boring and slow.. cos everybody havent warm up la.. hahs. CRC(challenge rope course) was so exciting! haha. at 1st i got not smangat den the instructor force me.. den he encourage and stuff. haha. fun! but i swear at 1st sary lar. haha. but when i finish i was damn proud! so den more confident to do the rest which i accomplished!!! haha *beams* clap lah ppl. haha.
den got kayakin! the best! i partner wit melissa[2t1]. she freindly lar! haha. kayakin seriously fun. i wanna do it again! teamwork was like so important. haha.

2nd day. made frens wit lukman[2n2] n hafiz[2n3] n elyne[2n1]. the only malays mah.. haha. seriously tiring sia dat day. but again. i fast the whole day n seriously dat nite was fun. campfire was just oh so unforgettable. mr wong n mrs wong cute uh.. i will nvr forget the fun times i had der. seriously fun!!. *sings banana song*

3rd day was sadd-ed to leave dat place. serious sia. will nvr forget the time esp when the malays sahur togeder.. at the end of it all, i'm really proud of myself lar.. i accomplish so many things dat i tot i cant do. esp the CRC. serious. haha. =) luv my mates. luv *DENTON*(my group).

kk. tink now i still tired lar. niwae today was fun!!! haha. met 'him. who 'him? dun ask uh.. haha. met the evg peeps n stuff n when riding all over the wdl. fun lar. haha. den went down to bazaar walk wit dem n stuff n go causeway point. damn. haikal[evg] bought his gf billabong cap. wah.. nice sia. who choose?? me lar. hah. so nice!! i jealous big time!! haha. the cap pink n green uh. nice! haha. but nvm. raye money is for spendin big time! haha.

k lar.. tink dis entry is long enuf.. n oh ya. result sucks biggie time! fuck lah.. haha. kk. gtg. byez. =)

-it doesnt take long for u to realise dat it is nvr forver.

der's no future without history.

grr.. darn bored at home! tmr camp. urgh. so not lookin forward to it. hahs. all ready but cant find a suitable bag.. tmr confirm like gundu like dat wit the big bag and sleepin bag. kill me sumone!! argh. heh. niwae, today it rains! ~wee.. i luv it when it rains. haha. had exams at religious class. talk bout failing lah can? haha. okie lar.. breakin fast time.. byezz..

.~nothin excites me more den he's presence. =)

hey.. wah.. took like 4hrs doin the frenster layout. hahs. but nvr mind. al least i accomplished wat i want. *beams* heh. dunno wat to write leh.. just so happy if he chats wit me. =) niwae, changing my song soon.. to secret love.. nice song. heh. ok2. gtg. ~byezz..!

heh.. cant keep my hands off the net. studied maths all the way.. hearin to the song secret love. go read the lyrics.. means a lot for me.. dunno wat else to say.. hahs. so stop here. byez.

*namun harus aku akui
sukar untuk melepaskanmu
akhirnya aku undur diri,
demi dia dan kamu.

~kembalikan bahagia yg kau curi ketika aku bersama dia.

i swear i didnt want to update. den skali when wannna switch off.. sumtin shockin happen! ~wahas. its now i'm shock like hell uh! hahs. i slept myself thrice and now my ear got buzzing sound. omfg! hahs. k lar. wanna sleep. dun even know why i had to write dat down. hahas. gd nite ppl!! =D

~happy like a bird. *fly to sky.

ehkz.. i'm addicted to bloggin AGAIN! uhz.. not a gd sign. very bored uh at home.. granpa hogging the tv den sis is out den the rest go pray.. boring like hell. hahs. math spaper on monday! i need LOADS of luck to pass! help me uh.. hahas. sumore got wat to say? haish.. very the bored. n btw, he just sign in. hahs. kk. dats crap.. tmr got religious class den back to studying all the way den the nxt day is maths den the next is science. gosh. both so the very the important. haiz.. niwae, tinkin back bout wat he said ytd.. i'll try to follow.. well dats a miracle IF i do forget him.. haha.. n read thru all my previous blog entries. damn. all so emo-ish. ahakz.. sadded when read the part bout argh. him. hahs. k lar.. dunno wat to say.. stop here. tag me ppl!!
~toodles..!

-burgers, performance, wisma, home, mrt, msg and a whole lot more.
*memories*. ;>

chang evrythin.. yeah. how??? nice. the song if u read the lyrics than its very nice. the lyrics is under misc section. go n read. so meaningful. hahs. niwae. ytd, had dis long n nice talk wit him. guess now he knows how i feel and i know how he feels.. time to move on yeah. but it sure takes time. he really love her de... haiyo. so i think i know my faults and he know his n ya lar.. no use talkin more. tag my board ppl..! tink dats it. wanna study maths! hahs.
~cheerios..!

-the scars remind me dat the past is real.

hello... haiz. seems like secs ago i wanna write so much but den tink again i ratehr keep to me, myself n i.. hahs. pass two days been remeniscing[sp?] on the past wit iz.. haiz. we both been thru hell n heaven and only god knows how we miss dem. ooh.. whos dem?? the man of our lives.. hahs. nothing much to say. been studying goin out wit frens and everythin.. i luvv... no one. hahs. ders just one thing i wanna say.. i truly truly miss him.. ooh.. who s him?? hahs.. someone. someone i havent let go off even though its like wat?? 10 mnths? hahs. kk. i'll shut up..


there's just soo much dat i wanna do to make u realise how much dis heart aches for u..=(

wahs.. finally an update! hah. read ah kiao blog den inspired to update since long time nvr update. hah.. wth. exams nxt wk. been studying. lols. yeah. i did. i dun see any light in science de loh.. maths now got hope eh! haha. wanna work hard. pass every darn subject..! haha. sec3 confirm stress like hell.. haha. want exams to fly den enjoy!!!!!! ~wahaha...! i cant beleive i'm sayin dis but i miss band! boohoo! miss those sittin in the band room and crappin n stuff. okie2. life so far is so good..! yeah. thank god. not perfect but contented lar.. friday was so nice eh.. i luv ZIYL! haha.. zin, leks ah.. things will get better gurl. haha. tink dats it.. gd luck for exams!!!!
~Byezz..!!