ok. i've nvr felt so touched nor excited till today.
let me get the names rite 1st:

JARAD.cheltton.wenjing.jazreel.

kexuan.jasmine.
lanlan.yeihearn.

kenneth.nicholas.audrey.

to all the above.
I LOVE YOU GUYS ALOT.
let me tell the whole world ok wat u all did. (:
ok. u all know my dieing admiration for the GERMANY team rite?? soo.. at 1st i had the pathetic fake jersey which the material is so fake. haha. butBUT. these guys buy for me the ORIGINAL GERMANY FOOTBALL JERSEY for my bdae! ahhhh. (((: how happy i am?? SO HAPPY! nvr haf i come across dis ppl who like buy sumtin i really wanted. i mean.. gosh. i just love it lahh k. words cannot express my gratitude. i luv dat jersey alot. its hanging at the foot of my bed and i feel like wearing it to sleep. my god.. im so ecstatic, overjoyed, touched. the class gang. the recess family. LOVE U GUYS ALOT! ((((((:

special mention to JARAD.
my god. didnt know u wud rmb.
u went dat xtra mile.. THANX.
((: GREAT GUY man.
JARAD ROCKS! (=

to WANI:
ur present though simple,

its the thought dat counts ok?
luv ya lil-SIS! (:

ok. FYI:
my bdae is NOT today.
haha. its on wednesday.
still damn loooong. haha.
but ya.. THNX ALOT AH.
best BDAE EVER..
hope we go out celebrate on the

day itself wit the classmates.
~yay!! =D

and wateva hapen ytd.
stressful. BUT.
wat i like bout dis conflicts is dat

it just makes the 4 of us stronger.
ZIYL. my LIFEline. (:
love u guys alot man!

at the end of the ntry.
i just realise dat im bless in many ways.
i say it b4 and i want to say it again.
its ok if i dun haf u know.
mayb. JUST maybe.
the grass is greener on the other side.

"when u love sumone, u would haf to sacrifice

sumtin for dem in order to make dem happy."

and so now i know,
i perfectly understand why.
(:

iHATEdisfeeling. ):
"kau pergi jua setelah cinta ku ini membara."

iMISSyou. so fuckin much.
shudnt haf gone to dat blog.
NO. ahhh. forget dat fugly past.

u made me stronger in so many ways.
but afta readin dat particular blog, did u reali made me stronger or weaker? i dunno. LOST. no. i havent forgottn u, i dunno when i will. im scared n angry i DUNNO.

andandAND...
i shall NOT borrow my phone to anybody.
i am so SCARED of losin the only memories.
): TWICE ardy it happen.
iz i dun blame you. seriously. (:

i dun wanna say anymore.
CHELTTON.
im sorry ok?

HIM?
no more... itsNEVERpossible.

ok. so many things to say..
lets start frm andrea party which was ytd.
so FUN!! ahaha.
CONDO is soo freakin cool!
andrea! nxt yr invite me again ok!
lol. okok. was rushin here n der. met chel, jing n jarad den headed to andreas party. so many ppl were der. haha. 3E4 ROX!! haha. dey kept callin me thier maid! =.-" haha. marcus kena so many times durin the game. n he gaf dat pathetic look! so cute ah! lols. me, jaz, jas n xuan kept playin "chi-ko-pak". ahakz.. so lame ahh. shaiz n bowen join us den many many also. games was not bad ahh. cake n food was damn nice ahh! but the swiss ppl like very anti-social! haha. damn shit ahh. went back ard 10+. so tired ahh. pradeep! pay me $6 ahh! hahs. (: overall it was a nice nite wit the class ahh. so cool. not mentioning sumtins here n der!
i likeeee!! =D

ok. den today went to S.I ROADSHOW!
so cool! hahaaa. ((:
HADY so CUTE!
JOAKIM more cute!!!! =D
wayWAYWAY cute ler... hahas.
he went to sign at the board his signature den got "staying strong." woah. he's so brave to brave through all the criticism. but nvm lahh. at least he persevere's. gd job man! (: ok. like AS IF he reads my blog. nyaha. den makan den headed home wit jasmine. (: FUN day.

overall! i love both days ALOT.
thnx DAD for allowin me to go to th party! ((:
i love friday soSOSO much!

; dimples_! (((:
p.s: FAEZAH! DIMPLES ARE NOT WEIRD. DEY ARE CUTE! xD

did he chnge his bag bcos of sumtin i said?
hmm.. (:

im feelin no better den ytd.
ahh. fuck. sriously. i feel like.....
~bleah.!
ONE STUPID SENTENCE, ruin everythin.
dang it. i soSOSO hate myself.
gahh. wateva i said ytd was honest BUT, not really frm the heart lah.
ngah mengamok uhh. lols.

i cant go andreas party.
so many reason seh why i angry:
1) CONDO leh!! havnt i emphasis how much i love condos???!! argh. the swimming pool. the gym! gahh. i so love CONDOS. let me go der!! pls. CONDO rox man! ARGH!
2) NOBODY knows bout dis but got secret reason ahh. *shh*
3) food! glorious food!
4) does ang moh who will be der! gahh!!!
5) and i ardy shared the present money. so sadded right if cant gf the present!
i feel like rippin sumtin appart. cos im blardy fuming mad cos........
AHH! lets no say it lahh. bye!

ah. im tired like hell.
hist project not done.
CH father nice ahh. blanja us pizza. (:
mly mock paper tmr.
chem test which i know ZILCH of.
phy practical which i left all the notes in sch.
amths trigo dat i seriously dun haf confidence cos the blody nic took all my papers! GAHH!
geog test which i desperately need to pass!
5 BLOODY TESSSSSSST!
so much for whole wk only 3 test!
TLL drives us nuts!
dis post is bloody random ah!

BUT.

iLOVEtoday!
haha.

; dimples_! ((:

my god.. im exhusted.
two nites in hospital. gahh..
wat an experience. lols.
the nurses der were so NICE!
ahh.. NUH NURSES ARE NICE!
must write feedback! haha. ((:

feel so nice also..
haha. ppl chaffeur me ard.
haha. biaselahh, org tkde car.
lols. thnx iz for the ride to sch dat day!
i swear i was so tired n u saved me!
(:

der was dis gila man who happy happy walk into girls ward. iwas scared. DUH. =x haha den kena scolded by nurse.den der was dis other chi. man who keeps walkin for hours w/o rest!! haha. so power man. btw, hes a patient! haha. wat an irony.

ok. haf to go chao hongs house do project.
bloody tired.
all the way to jurong eh n shaiz also happyhappy put the notes in sch.
HOW?? lols.
ok. xtra ppl i wanna thank:
IZ.ZIN.COUSINS.WEITING.YUHTING.
hoho. nice ppl ard me. i like!! (:

ok. gtg. bye!!

aite. ok.
i dunno where to start but its been a hard day.
didnt go sch. went to hospital.
alot of ppl i wanna thank.
KENNETH.CHELTTON.WENJING.
IZZATI.ZIN.
AUNTIESnUNCLES.

well not many ppl know bout dis but if u guys know, pls pray for my mum aites. her op. took less than 10 hrs and shes fine. may god bless her and may she haf a speedy recovery. amin.

i felt so depressed dat i broke down so many times.
thanx to my family and frens alot.
wat im goin through now will make me stronger.
insyaallah.

-LIFE'S SHORT.-

; i wish i cud just "picit" u just now.
):

i was revising my peribahase.
and SUDDENLY.
i had the urge to go online.
and and when i did,
i felt like i was goin to be HULK.
hahaha. butbutBUT!
im tryin sumtin new called:
"acceptin others no matter how fuckin much u wish they werent born."
yeah. gd rite? eliminate all those freaky feelings of jealousy and agony.
nyaha. aite.
im still burning wit anger though.
but laugh the bloody angryness outta urself.
hahahahahaha!

ahaha. HISTORIANS doin the BANDIT.

love MR KAMAL loads.

one of the many many many reasons why history ROCKS!

n i luv his kids. haha.

look at HM!! haha. darn slow lahh he!

ok. so bored today.
PLAN to study the whole day.
ahaha. notin much to say lahh.
oh. btw. is PJC good?

ahh.. JC life seems like fun.
but its a long long long way to go...
=x i wanna go JC.
but i dun wanna go to the shitty ones.
ahaha. but even if i do den im thankful lahh.
but if realli wanna go JC might as well go for the gd gd ones.
spech day hinted me alot.
n i see a particular senior on the stage,
im like: "if she can do it den i can do it to!"
hmm.. but den if i dun go JC where i want to go?
i told mum cannot go JC den go SHATEC.
cooking, baking, hotel mangement.
dat kinda things i like..
those things i at least haf passion.
o's nxt yr. *prays hard to get promoted!*
shud realli buck up if wanna get those distinctions.
not too late.......
RITE? =x

gahh. why am i talkin bout dis??
hahaha.

bloggers bein nice! haha. pics! frm long long ago.

ISTANA PERFORMANCE.

me, jas n naf. ((:

we look so cool lah.

look at my rank!! nyaha.

GERMAN GUY AND US!

haha. look at those bright smile! ((:

not everyday get to see PURE GERMANS!

nyaha. ;)

RACIAL HARMANY DAY.

me, bram, zheng kang, warren, iz, zin, frqin.

mly exp ppl! haha

NICE N SWEEET PIC. love 'em! ((:

NDP PREVIEW DAY.

me n iz went der. haha. FUN!

pic of the parade. ~cool. ((:

fireworks! haha. we were so close! (:the 2 besties. love HER. HAPPY NATIONAL DAY S'PORE!

its ok if dun haf u now. thnx for everytin today. ((:

; cos it makes me smile to see u happy.

hey.. so long time nvr blog.
been busy studyin. hai...
is no more her.
she's sumone else.

im TIRED.
tired of everytin ard me.
for so long i haf not lamented bout my life.

first thing:
i feel bored of listenin to ppl probs.
i know i sound abit sellfish but dats how i feel lahh. im alwaes at the receivin end like as if i dun haf my own probs. so now my ears are reserved for very very special like ZIYL, 3E4 peeps, my adk angkts and my family. im anti-socialisin. i wanna disconnect frm everybody cos im just too exhausted. sec3 life just prevents u frm doin anytin anymore.

2nd thing:
Band. i broke down while takin sectionals. ders just so many odds against me. not against me but my dreams. mayb only kenneth understand dis. well, so be it. i still wanna say it. its just dat wat do u do when the only thing dat u love all ur life starts to turn its back on u. wat do u do when u just cant do anytin bout ur dreams. wat happens when u tried ur best but it just doesnt work. WAT HAPPENS WHEN WAT U'VE BEEN WORKIN SO HARD ON GIFS UP ON U. if the whole sect wanna quit. i dunno wat to say. i feel so much for band dat just when i want to releive lovin band the way i used to, everytin gets so so wrong.

3rd thing:
ZIYL. we need to talk. dats it.

4th thing:
dis few wks i duno why but i keep thinkin bout dat VERY old past. it just gets back on u everytime u try not to. i feel so exhausted. if only we cud go back in time back to when i didnt even know u at all. den mayb things wud be diff. ive passed the point of lovin u n hatin u. im just thinkin wat went wrong. cos it wasnt just all about u, but afta everytin disappeared my life too wasnt the way it was. like izzati said, why cudn't it be simple. like a b c's...

5th thing:
and to add to all dis. its true. sumtin has made a big impact on my family. i dun wanna say it hear. only iz know bout dis. but i just hope things dun take a turn for the worse. it happened before. NEVER wud i wanna go through dat same pain n wrenching period wit my family.

BUT. sumhow... ive been studyin better. haha. when i'm stress-free i cant study much but when im in dis state, i study better. i really hope i pass trigo test and physics or i rathe go n die. =x ~bleahs. such a loong post. stop here. bye.. :