few word b4 i go to bed..


he nvr chat wit me anymore!! hias.. nvm2.. i will still wait n wait n wait n wait. until daat day comes.
`sms
`call
`chat
`talk
`smile
any of the above CAN make me happy.


nitezz... )=

quickie update!


today didn't do much cos reali felt like not doin anytin. anypoops.. watch Robots which afta 20 mins off watchin i decided dat i didn't understand anythin. -.- nyahaha.. so den watch a amazing race marathon. i just so love amber n rob. although dey kind of a bit snobby, but still luv dem cos of survivor dat time. reali like the "negro" couple. wah lao. sacrifice hair just 2 win. *salutes. niwae, while watchin.. i ate M & M. guess wat i found? a series of odd lookin m&m shapes. since i was kind of excited, i took pics of it. hahs. n it wasn't just one, i found a few. post the pics when i haf time to upload den host the image stuff. did i mention i luv myself except for 1 currently?? yesh.. thank god izzati top up already or i'll live in depression. oh yar, i found out the meaning of baobei. hahhs. ;)


anywayss... tink dats all i did. wanna do lit stuff as i dun haf any maths or science. *smacks forehead*


~till den.. byezz..!

shall rewrite dis post again. summary:
-my monana was disfigured. lol.
-maybe i am a sadist. =x
-i hate seein dem cos it just reminds me of him. =s
-the piles of work is gettin way out of control. =(
-excluding, the last part of today, it was cool. =)
-didn't saw him today. =(((
-nobody appreciates wat i do. *sigh*
-i'll get killed afta exams. *deeeeep breaths*
-i noe he's not comin back but i assume he does.
-cos of the above things, i feel like givin up. -.-


when can i luv myself back again?

did is how it feels..

everyday when i get up, i noe i will want to look at ur face. BUT noein dat its just gonna make me more sad. ever heard of love vs. hate?? dats it. dat how i feel. bein someone open minded, i open my mind to the possibilities or reasons on the negative n positive. guess wat i find out. the equation "love vs hate=??" yeah. no answers. my self reflection time are those times where i will reminiscent bout wat i did wrong to u. hurts me dat much. dat much. yeah. so wait n wait for ur sms, calls or wadeva. but nope. "stress+sadness= depression". now dats rite. luckily, i've come to the point dat life's not only bout u, so i've begin to be happy. but not as happy when i was 4, 5, 6 months ago?? yeah.. miss seein ur cute way when u play dat thing. dat sweet wide smile u can just flash dat makes my heart beat so wild. dat caring msges n sweet lil advices. dat polite n graceful action when talkin to me. dat bold act of askin me out. dat everlasting questions u haf dat keeps the conversations goin. dat charismatic walk. dat cool way of talking. dat iniative to ask. yeah. n many many more. dats wat dat make me fall in **** wit ya.
-miss ya-
-wanna get back too the old times.-

i'm back!! haha.. kk.. today.. was god damn boring. hahs.. okie.
early in the morn, take train, here discman. *jiwang* hahs.. den see liyana.. she soo lucky lo. den reminded of the times i had wit him. so sweetzz.. i mean her story lah. btw, i hat guys who say
"i like u but i luv her". dis is absolute crap n rubbish. bullshit! neva say dis to me if u dun wanna get smack upside down. hahs. serious. guys like dat shud GTH..! haha. okie.
Home Ec was obviously boring. stupid home ec. gif a lot of test. so den et had to do the NYAA thing. so confused n boring. hahs. was late for mt. kinda look like crazy women rushing to mt class. hahss.. okie. den recess, eat den ytd renee b'dae. she open present. hahaha..! so beloish.. den had eng. do writing skills. mrs wong is just so gd in teaching. cute at times. hahs. k den did some M.E thing den assembly. was fun lar.
den maths remedial was killin me. argh. had to stay back until we complete the whole wksht. den got another one which i haf 2 complete. *doinks* finish ard 4+ den saw him. haha.. y now everytime see him want??? haha.. wit his stewpid hairdo.. haha.. cute??? maybe.. hahs..
den went back home. won't be back here which just means i may not get to chat wit him today. saw him like 1 only?? hias.. )=
k narhs..~byezz..!

I haf the same skin as paula...!!! argh. nemmind. i won't change cos ders not enuf time. niwae. full update of today.
woke up ard 9+. den played the XBox. Nice until i realize i haven't bathe n i needed to got to religious class. so was kinda late but u noe lar, the sec 2s.. dun care late or early, come into the auditorium strolling. hahs.. den was sadded by some sad news.. *duh* okie, den kinda repented but u noe lar teens, won't repent dat early. aisyah didn't come so was boring, but lucky got Nina. thanx gurrl. so den went back home.
surf the net for awhile den play XBox again. fun u noe. hahs. den watch tv den finally decided to do hmwk. proudly, i can say dat i finish my eng compre n otw to finish maths.. YAYNESS!! but den, lose interest n here i am blogging.. wanna watch some scary show aftawards which means my hmwk will be left aside again.. *sighs* when will i realise its not easy to get promoted???
k narhs.. gtg.. ~byezz.!

ahh... kk..
nice or notzz??
okie lar huh??
the navigations is using the pics..
stll not complete yet..

vehh short ntry b4 i go sleep..
notin much happen..
i still do like him lar..
if can be like teresa gd huh??
can post his pics n tell the whole world..
but too bad lar, i not dat type..
haix..

::402101::
tot u rmb, but no..
nvm, when the day comes, u'll noe..
missin u lotzzzz...

till den...~ byezz.. nitez..

rainbows

hahss..
rainbow can appear in the dark huh??
if got i really wanna see..
see the 7 o'clock chinese show..
the last part so nice..
the couple kiss at the beach behind got rainbow..
*imagine.......*
nice hor?? hahs...

notin much happen today..
just luv my life..
though not really satisfied..
but i cudn't ask for more rite??
everytin might be a blessin in disguise..
((= yep...

maths n science test..
wat can i say...
haha.. see midzi paper..
almost all blank..
almost like me lar.. hahs..

wat is 402101??
haha.. onli me n my frens will noe..
n dat special sum1 onli if his clever..
=P

okie.. gotta do some hmwk..
till den.~cheerios..!

-still ever so sweet n nice

=)

miracles..

haix.. gonna be short..
everytin just hasn't got better..
seriously wanna like give up..
but i dun wanna gif up just yet..

wish me loads of lucks for
MATHS n science tests tmr..
=SS *0% confidence*

argh..
miracles do happen..
don't dey??
hope dey do..

shall stop here..
i'm suffering frm osteoporosis..
hahs.. =P
i luv ppl who cares for me..
wheee... ((=

till den... ~nitezz..!

NAPFA

argh. damn. didn't do dat well.
((dissapointed+sad))
hias.. okie.. notin dat gd happen..
except for midzi.
argh. damn u lar..
even if u happen to read wat ur NOT suppose to read, wateva is writen is all over!!!
i fuckingly dun like him anymore!!
GET DAT!!!!
told u clues already wat..!!
shit u.! wat i wrote in dat darn book is fuckingly not wat i feel now n it was ages ago..!!

argh.. now... i like him...............
haha.. yesh.. saw him LOADS of time..
whee... ((=

kk.. so tired..
wat i wanna do:
-update linkies
-DO HMWK!!
-burn song
so dats it..

till den..~byezz!!

the legacy..

whoots.. i'm tired.
haha.. i tried to study but just so many things in my mind.
okie.. the scene when we all just rose n scream n hug keep flashin back..
it was breathtaking+memorable..
*SWISS WINDS RAWKS!!*
we didn't bring the seniors down..
n talking bout seniors.. ytd was thier last perf..
so sad... )))=

jin xiu.yu jia.justin.hui shi.feroz.jenn.candice.yuh ting.christine.kai lin.sathiya.luqman.juliana.
all those.. alot more..
all living us.. reali sad lar..
nvm.. just wish them all the best n gd luck for thier o lvls..

kk.. dun sad2 nimore..
i still can't beleive we got GWH..
haha.. we rawk..!!
kk.. gtg study..

~adios...!

*SWISS WINDS RAWKS!!!*

SWISS WINDS DID IT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!

we got
GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!!!!!!!!!!
~whoopedoooooooo...!!!!!!!! wheee....!!!
u cud imagine the tension b4 we played..
snide comments here n der..
all were nervous n scared..
on stage.. my section played a couple of wrong..
afta we got down..
jin xiu cried.. which just freak me out..
we were told to go back to school..
onli sec 4 stay..

in the bandroom...........
so stressing.. start calling ppl..
bad feeling den..
but den here on the fon..
this are the exact words:
"band 130, swiss cottage secondary, GOLD WITH HONOURS"
OMG!!!! the whole band rose n scream n hug..
n for the 1st time i cried tears of joy..
all those who were at the 1st level look up n we started screaming dat we got GOLD!!!!
i was god damn happy...!!!!!!!!!!!
all effort pay off...!!!
it was such a touching moment...
wish dat moment cud last a lifetime..
4 yrs straight get gold...! haha..
~wheeeee..............!!!!!!! (((((=

hahs.. afta dat went home wit usual ppl..
go my house..
such a fun day..
i just love myself..
n for another reason...
i tink i've moved on..
i shall n therefore move towards a brighter n better me...!
n_<

till den...~chheeeeriosss..!!!!

* SWISS WINDS ROCK THE ENTIRE WORLD! *

SYF 2005!

helo ppl..
kk.. the day b4 the BIG day..
i'm scared+nervous..
haiz.. semb got gold, yt got silver..
swiss??okie2.. will try out best n get gold k..?

wateva i wrote just now was crap.
hahs. lets start frm tues.
yeah. 2.4! hahs.. 1st time i shall say dat it RAWKS!
for the 1st time in my life i get position
14!!!! ~whoopedoodidledidumdiwhee..!
hahhss. so proud seh.. tot i wud get 20+..
*applause*

catching up on maths but slowin down on science.
Mr heeee doesn't rox my socks..!
hes darn lame liao.
hah.. nvm..

to him.. i got only 1 ques.
-y u still nvr tok to me??
i got make wrong to u huh??
wat seh.. haiyo.. nvm..
tryin to move on..

me n my frens rawk our own world!
hahs.. FINALLY get time to spent time togeder.
~wheee..! may we stay foreva togeder!!!! =P
*ZIYL*

tmr.. SYF...
nervous to the idiotic core..
nvm.. swiss will do our best..
gold is enuf.. pray for us alrite.. =s

lastly, one damn idiotic dumbo dumby stupid moronic animal steal my wallet!
der u go.. so stress seh wallet lose..
tink dunno wat else to write..
stop here..

till den.. ~cheerios..!

::402101:: *GOLD*

~inside i realise dat i'm the one confuse.
-i miss u yeah. (=

swiss winds add oil!!!!

feel so stress but motivated..
MARSILING GET GOLD WIT HONOURS!!
OMG!!! I'm utterly shocked!
pressure.. wonder wat sembawang get..
*mind tinks of b------h* hahs. damn her.
SWISS WINDSS ADD OIL!!
JIA YOU!!
argh. pray2 we'll get wat we want.
at least a gold. PLS!! =s

niwae, tmr hafto run 2.4 AGAIN.
damn blardy shit.
but on the bright side, my cupcake was damn nice!
whee..!!!

SWISS WINDS ALL THE WAY KS..!!!
ADD OIL ADD OIL!!! =PpPpPpP

tears.

life so bored when ders no one..
rite..?? yeah.. i noe..
just read sometin bout gals cryin for guys..
how fortunate for a guy to get a gal cryin for him..
yeah, its a moment where we put our ego down..
but often day dun care..
niwae, happenings for today..
went for religious class..
den go eat wit aisyah...
den go home.. tot of goin study but all my frens not nthu..
so nvm.. feel like typin but dunno wat 2 write..

so nvm..
i'll stop here..
afta dis, do hmwk den sleep maybe..
SWISS WINDS jia you..!!
work hard..!!! ((=

till den.. ~byezz..

*GOLD WITH HONOURS*

wonders..

okie.. long time nvr update..
bu then again dis will be short cos i wanna sleep..
hehs.. ytd was super nice for me..
ahh.. shh..! can't tell.. =P
niwae.. tink dunno wat to write..

but lastly i wanna ask dis..
-how did somtin so tiny turn to sometin big?
-was even noticing u such a big crime?
tink back on those days we started..
hiax.. life was living in cloud 9..
but den again.. all i did was started noticing u..
but yar.. y did tings get bigger..?

haiyo.. stop here..
veh tired today...
can't wait for tuesday..
SWISS WINDS jia you..!!

till den.. ~byezz..

*GOLD WIT HONOURS*

time..

yay..! finally i update..!
loads haf been goin on..
lets start from sunday..

NCC AFFIRMATION CEREMONY.
yeah..! seriously very nice..
didn't play dat much so it was alrite..
all the NCC members so fun lo..
when we play the YMCA, some got dance..
so cute.. haha..
took pics n crap ard..
n i especially love the repelling thing..
go back late but nvm lar..
it was a nice day.. :)

monday: ASSEMBLY PERFORMANCE
it was okie..
lessons dat day wasn't too good..
wanted to go for maths remedial but got hmt.
btw, i seriously wanna improve my maths..
my last test was like shit!
n i mean it.. =s

tuesday: UPPER SEC ASSEMBLY PERF.
it didn't started dat gd..
n i tell u zameer was god damn noisy..!
sheesh.. haha..
niwae.. band prac wasn't gd..
yar, those things..
just wish us luck for SYF.. :l

today: bored!
haix.. too stress in class..
almost cried.. but controlled..
yeah..! i'm strong..
days go on den hmt..

now.. problems currently..
i dun wanna care wat ppl tink..
but it just bothers me..
1st it was her.. den now u..
yeah.. fine.. wadeva..
ur the gd one.. damn u.

seriously.. like got no hope for maths..
wanna get tuition for maths..
argh..

lastly..
just wish me gd luck for SYF, maths n my life..
i seriously need help..
argh. till den..

~byezz...

i've fallen..

haix.. everythins so cruel..
try not to think bout all those stuff..
but i just can't..
when will all dis end..?
can't i just have one day where i can hold on to the happiness dat i try very hard to gain..?
if not one day at least half a day..?

first him..
den her..
den her..
den her..
den maths..
den her..
den him..
den now again.. HIMM..

everythin just nvr end..
try to be positve..
tryin real hard not to let things affect me..
but i'm too weak..
wat am i becoming..
why everyone so cruel to me..
no time for my family nimore..
feel so bad.. cos everytime dey cannot go out cos of me..
den i now very quiet.. argh.
i shall stop.

dat feeling come n now i'm cryin..
tot i wud be strong to continue..
but no.. like i said..
i'm too weak..

++//i've fallen. so now u noe.