a whole summary of my life currently

k, i'm too depressed now..
so let me resolve some issues here..
firstly.. dis is sometin i've no touch on although it has been happening for quite some time..
let me begin..

dis part of the entry is for my "fren"..
Fathin Hanani..
yes you.. u notice i haven't write anything bout u haven't i..?
well here goes all my opinions...
u reply zin's tag n say dat it was HER fault when she didn't layan u on the day we went out 2 eat is it..?
u say we treat u differently frm how we treat fizzah last time is it..?
well, let me tell you, dat dis entry wasn't an encouragement frm anyone but i wanted to tell my part of the story..
now, let me bring u to the day when u n yana start the DIARY..
yes, dat diary which u n yana onli was aloud to write in..
let me ask u..
if u were me, iz or zin, how wud u haf felt..
wudn't u sense something was happenin..?
sometin was happenin ONLY between u n her..
wudn't u feel like an outcast..
wudn't questions start apperin in ur head..
questions like why is the diary started between u two,
when u in the 1st place is closer to zin..
why is der a sense of alliance building..
wudn't u feel HURT..
yes, i may not be close to u, but i was HURT when i knew abt dat diary..
was it fair to the other 3 of us..
u guys had a form of communication but we didn't haf..
rmb, u ever said dat "frens tell not hide.."
y was dat diary even created in the 1st place..??
n yes, u did let us read it, but did u noe how we felt bout it..?
u also made the other 3 of us look as if we're UNABLE to help yana wit her probs..

den afta dat..
u started givin us dat cold face look..
we TRIED asking u wat was wrong..
n all u said was "tkde pape" or in other words nothin wrong..
now, wit dat ans u expect us to help u..???
u turn to yana wit ur probs rite..
again u made the other 3 of us look like idiots who can't help u..
even if we tried advising u, i beleive some parts of it u only PRETEND to hear wat we were saying..
den i rmbered clearly, dat u started bein closer to yana.. not zin..
u sort of like showed us dat u wanted ur own gang..
onli u, yana n fizzah.. where was th 5 of us which u haf been blabbing bout..???
excuse me miss, who was the one who was all against fizzah besides me last time..
u rite..?? n now u want to be the 2-faced-idiot who go wit her..
wat the fish..

den dat day, when the 3 of u go to the movies..
u said u wudn't go if u knew dat i knew..
wat the shit u talkin..
does dat mean if i DIDN'T noe, u wud haf gone..???
didn't u haf a sense of guilt.. a sense of betrayal towards us..
i guess no rite.. u knew fizzah n liyana cud be use for ur evil plan..
u cud haf AT LEAST told us dat u wanted to skip lessons dat day..
i tried my best to hide dat u were goin to the movies frm iz n zin..
but i HAD dat sense of guilt.. a sense of loyalty..
dats y told dem.. u wanna call me a betrayer, a big mouth..
go on girl.. i wan only doin my part.. which was tellin the truth..
so much for ur FRENS TELL NOT HIDE..

den, the day after dat.. u realized dat the other 3 of us was diff towards u..
phew.! i'm glad u notice.. i knew u knew dat dey already noe bout u skippin classes.
u REALIZE dat i totally didn't talk to u..
but didn't u notice dat zin TRIED to talk to u..
even wit the fact dat she KNEW dat she was betrayed by someone who she RESPECTED, LOOK UP TO N WAS HER BEST FREN..
notice i use the word was..
she tried askin u nicely to go out n eat wit us..
but u just gaf her the "i dun gif a damn look" n u just replied somberly wit a "no"..
zin was hurt gal.. but she just keep quite..
den when we were walkin.. u USED wit fizzah to tell ur probss..
hah.. using someone again..
we just keep quiet.. n i beleive dat day, u PURPOSELY walk slowly to irritate us..
yup, n u just keep quiet.. but den again, u notice zin still borrowed u money
although she was almost broke den..
she still wanted u but u just didn't wanna talk to her..
do u tink it was FAIR to us, oh no, dun talk bout us.. was it fair to HER(ZIN)..??

den the day when i gave u back ur hmt test paper, u didn't even say thank you..
u just gaf me the "i dun gif a damn" look..
i cudn't be bothered to even 'jeling" at u..

n den, der was 1 day afta hmt..
u noe zin's leg was hurting n it was hot..
but like always, the sellfish u, u just insist on walking..
u didn't even cared bout d others..

n dun tink i'm all good wit fizzah, renee n firqin..
i noe u might be thinkin dat i'm contradicting myself..
i'm not.. k.. if the rest wanna be clsoe wit dem..
i cannot say anything..
but i want u to noe, dat i haf not forgotten wat dey did to us..
n i nvr did gaf fizzah a diff treatment..
she was the want who got closer to us..
but i can swear dat i nvr treat her like more den how i treat the 4 others, or shud i say the other 3 of us..?

so, the days goes on witout u in our lifes..
now, there is a reason y i write all dis..
some one close to me is havin ur problem now.
rest assure i NOE how u feel..
n i feel its just rite to let u noe our opinions..
n dun tink all i write in here is it..
der is more..
just dun wanna make u look bad..
think bout all dat we haf done for u..
i may not haf done much for u..
but just think about ppl like zin..
she's the hurt most u noe..
n u said u dun haf anyone..?
wat about ur "oh-so-great" abgs..?
wat abt ur "oh-so-great-frens- which-i-dun-gif-a-damn-last-time-but-now-so-gd-2-me" frens..
i'm not making u look bad..
now, i'm, no, WE are giving u a chance to EXPLAIN urselve..
a chance which u haf been longing for..
now dat u noe wat we feel..
answer my qustions gal...
i'll be waitin..

too tired to write the other probs lar..
till den, adios...