im actually in the library now.
very lazy to go home, although im alone.

i badly want to update about shanghai trip ok ppl.
but i still dunno how to put my experience in words.
):

i really do miss that place like f***ing lots.
more of the ppl actually.
the friends i've made.
the bond we forged.
the shaghai classmates we met.

i'm wishing so much now that my shanghai classmates would come online to talk to me. but i know they're still having thier lessons now. prolly the last lesson for the day. ): must be so super cold there by now. would they still be thinking about me? do they miss me? cos i really do. the hostel we stayed in contains so much memories. tears, sadness, joy, laughter. whatever nots. rmb STUPID PIG? (: first time i saw the other side of janielson i never knew. hahs. rmb how scheming i was? =p rmb all those taitee games wit mr kamal? all those hiding? hahas. i wish somehow, i could just go back to those days...

rmb dat day, when it was damn late at night and we still practising our "ONE PEOPLE,ONE NATION..." item and iskandar shouted "fireworks!!!" wit his eyes wide open? we thought he saw a ghosts? but turn out, i saw one of the best fireworks showcase beside my friends and we all were "ooh-ing and ahh-ing..." amazing eh?

its just so wonderful to feel such a kind of bond. frm ppl u dun really know, or hate, or maybe even strangers. this bond was made between us. its funny how i was so reluctant to leave s'pore on the morning of 25 Nov. scared out of my wits to leave my family... but then, after coming back on the night of 4 dec, i really didnt want to go home. even now, when i see Madan online, i feel so excited and jump at the chance to know how he's doing in India. i feel like laughing when i realise how my views about ke xuan, jasmine and andrea have changed so much btwn 10 days. and then i cry cos i regretted not knowing this side of them earlier. janielson and madan too, i wished i'd known them so much earlier. funny how i always tell janielson during the trip that i've never really realise his presence in sch. and when we're there, we've been the closest freinds i have.

no more sleeping wit jasmine.
no more making act cute faces wit ke xuan.
no more getting scolded frm andrea.
no more calling janielson "jenny".
no more saying that madan's off to get married.
no more jia yi to hold hands wit cos we're feeling cold.
no more sailesh to say that its "SUMMER".
no more iskandar to blab all the nonsense i feel.
no more hearing yao zu speak like dave..

those were the days...

p/s: went back all the way down, just to see you and only you. i hope u realise.