have the sudden urge to blog cos im bored.
kinda lonely now. just wanna say some things.
been a long time since i did so.

hmm.. ever since im wit hanyang, many ppl think dat as if im controlling his life. but i wonder how many ppl really think wat i feel. i know its not wrong to have assumptions but come on.. in class i dun really have gd frens and i agree that it was to a large extent my fault cos i was the one who distant myself frm u guys ever since dis yr. and i do miss some of them.. jazreel, wenjing, cheltton. will nvr forget u guys buying me the germany jersey last yr. (: but after certain things happen things change and we cant help it. hanyang has always been der for me lahh and i thank him for dat. i rarely have dis kind of company. furthurmore, the other mly peeps are in another class, our timetables clash so its not like i dun have frens its just dat we dun have the same free time. and thus, i depend on hanyang. ok. so just spare a thought for me ya?

however, out of the whole thing. im just so so so so SO damn thankful that zin, izzati and liyana has nvr been affected by dis. and dats why i love them. (: the others mighttink dat im neglecting my frens and i do realise dat but the fact that u guys till stand by me, i feel so blessed. (: u guys are really true frens. (:

the point of expressing this is not to gain sympathy its just dat i feel a lil confused. thus, frm now on, i'll try to spend lesser time wit hanyang and more time wit my frens cos i dun wanna lose them. i dun want ppl to think dat i cannot live w/o a boyfriend. cos dats no true. i think i cherish so many ppl i love so much dat i tend to oversee lil things dat matter most to them. sometimes i feel so guilty because i have directly or indircetly broken some close relatioships dis past few months.

its been a long time since i write this kind of things but i just have been thinking. its time to change my priorities which should haf been done long ago. sorry to all of u who have been affected.

anyway. tmr my b'dae! ((((:
so wanna take dis opprtunity to really thank ppl i love love so much! ppl who really make my life worth living.
IZZATI (my most best companion!)
ZIN
LIYANA
-thnx for standing by me and understanding me.
MY FAMILY.
HANYANG.
-u know me best. (: