2007 has been a blast and its ending!
though it doesnt feel like it seyh. hahas.
lets sum up 2007 for my final post!

SHANGHAI!!!

going to SHANGHAI is like the besssst thing that happened this year. cos i made freinds wit so many new ppl and i learn to cope on my own in a foreign country so well. and making the bond wit ppl i ardy know even closer. ALL 9 of you would always have a special place in my heart and i hope 2 or 3 yrs down the road, we can still have a gathering and all of us still recognize each other ya. (: MR KAMAL! thnx for being a wonderful teacher both in sch and during the trip. MDM TANG too! thankful that she took good care of all of us! SHANGHAI holds lots of beautiful and wnderful memories that i'll alwaysALWAYS rmb. I WONT FORGET MY SHANGHAI FRIENDS TOO! cos they made the trip even more worth it. ((:

HANYANG.

as much as putting your pic HURTS. i still got to thank you for makinf 2007 very nice to rmb. the times spent together has been really wonderful that i doubt anybody can replace it. but too bad we chose to go our own ways not together. yes, for those who dont know yet, WE BROKE UP. yahh. its saaaaad. but. oh well. i wanna just rmb u as ther person i first fall in love wit. not the person i broke up wit. ur letters and everytin u gaf me is kept and i shall not open it again cos i dun want to remind myself of the past. just thank you so much for helping me through 2007. good luck in whatever you do. (:

(damn it. typing the above sucks cos... )
i dont love you like i did yesterday.

other people, obviously ZIYL!
i dun have a pic of us together cos im using my lappy! BUT. im sososososo GLAD that although we have different classes, boyfriends, family, obligations, commitments etc. we still can just meet up and then talk nonsense and just spill our guts out! the way you all understand and just be there for me when i need it always makes me feel blessed to know i have real true friends who would always be by my side. (: i hope we can still get married, have our kids and still meet up ok! LOVE YOU GUYS: IZZATI, ZIN, LIYANA! *muacks!

not forgetting, 4E4.
yay!! omg. like finally all of us a graduating! can u like beleive it! hahas. o levels was a bitch but we made it! (: haha. look forward to see every single one of you during results! which is in less than a month! =x haha.

MY FAMILY.
ooh. hahs. this year, i think mum and i are like so much closer. (: hahs. hopefully next year it would be better! love all of you!

okok. so i tink dats about it!
some special mentions,
ISKANDAR: ooh. like i always say, U ROCK! thnx for always hearing me out when i have some nonsense to speak. when i cry, when i depressed. all i can say is that, i'll miss not seeing you. never expected you to be like so close to me this year. haha. (:

CHELTTON: omg. so glad we became close friends back. no matter how bad ppl impressions are, i still wanna say that he is a nice man. i am really sorry i misjudged you this year. i thank you for listening to me too and always being a ready company when i feel like all else fails. gd luck with BBALL and HER ok. :D

lastly, SUFFIAN: haha. i dunno how come we were like suddenly so close(friends) but i appreciate it a lot! (: thanx for lending me your ear and wasting ur sms when i cant sleep! hahas. you still like help me out when you dunno the real pic! i hope we wont forget each other and may 2008 bring much more happiness and a resolution/ending for you and ting ok. (:

2007 has past way tooooo fast!
on the whole has been so perfect except for this month. haha. its ok lahh. should always expect december to be a bad month! lols.
but im looking forward to next year. meeting new ppl, finding new friends!
2008! may it'll be a year filled wit so much fun and blessings.
a new beginning to a rusty ending!

with loads of LOVE;
-hayatii.

class bbq was fun! :D
gd time catching up and talkin and all that!
gonna miss every single one of them!
upload the rest wit caption tmr i tink. hahs. ((:

ok! wat a morning!
jst came back frm breakfast wit cheltton.
omg. we have no life lahh. ): hahahas.
gonna go out wit izzati later.
and then.. MOVIE! wit... hahas. (:

i'm tired of putting up a strong front. cos when there's too much going on you just cant do it all the time. i've so many things on my mind but i know im not the only wit it. so i keep it to myself first and try my best to not make others affected.

to you:
who's always been there for me this yr. it feels weird not having you ard. i cannot say that i'm ok and that i dun need you at all. cos thats utterly a lie. i wish i didnt have to go to shanghai if this was wat i have to go through. i know its unfair to you. even more unfair if you really knew wat happen there. cos it was utterly wrong for me to even do it. but, when i was there, i thought so much about you, us and myself. where did both of us stand in each others heart. it wasnt easy to bring myself to reality and assure myself that i too have no more feelings for you. but, the memories have been so beautiful. but it was a vulnerable one. i dun cry for u anymore i just miss the times. the fun. the joy. i really do. i still tire myself till today cos i refuse to tink abt all those times. i've been sleeping so late and waking up so late too cos i know i dun haf to think of u half the time. i'm still waiting for ur PROMISE to happen. you PROMISE and you have 2 DAYS left. cheltton told me to wait. i will. but if u dun fulfill it den f*** you. i feel so defenseless. even dat day, after talking to someone who was close to BOTH IF US, we cant find a reason for ur change. "its not like him to be rude." thats wat we agree on. but... ): i wish you communicate more and you'd have given me a chance you got back frm camp, but it was too late. the same thing happen to me last yr and i really wanted to make ammends b4 the same thing hapens,but it was too late. the letter i meant to give you is still in the box wit so many others. i dun want to wish anymore cos it just doesnt come true. thanx for everytin.

to you:
the one who was closest to me 2 wks ago. its been so long since the days we spent together. everytime, after its over you pretend like im a stranger. it hurts but i cannot do anytin cos we resolved and settled everyting before we said our final goodbyes. i'll always rmb wat u say: "wat happens there, stays there..." and i never knew you meant every single word of it. i wish i didnt do wat we did dat night. i wish i didnt agree to it. cos now, its taking a very big toll on me cos after all im someone who clings to memories and good times. its so hard to see you there but its like as if you dun even know me. its as though NOTHING happen but.. we shared so much while it lasted. gave me so much joy and happiness during the days we had. felt so protected, safe, cared, LOVED. i feel damn sad cos its over and your pretence/ignorence which is so bloody damn good. ):

over YOU.

phew! ok. so tired now.
spent half a day updating the SHANGHAI BLOG!
pls. PLEASE! go to:
www.humans-in-swiss.blogspot.com
and taaag ok! if you do visit!
its not complete ya so keep visiting! xD

OK! one of the days longLONG ago, i went back to band for the camp. wit AMIRUL! thnx for spendin that day wit me! (: here's some pics!















me and HAIKAL. ok. tough u were not promoted, do come back for band as often as u can ok! im gonna miss u and ur babats! hahaha! =D















AMIRUL!! ok. i tink he's waaaay handsome now! HAWT STUFF! haha. thanx for accmpanyin me again! ((:














me and ISKANDAR.
you! thanx for hearing me out when i really need to ok. i wont meet u so much next yr but hope we keep in touch! ohoh! A BIG BIG THANK YOU for keeping my secrets!!! hahas. my deepest, darkest secrets! ahhas. can never thank you enough! i've told u things that i would nvr tell others before! haha. ROCK ON DUDE! my best pal for the past few weeks! (((((:















ILYAS! DO NOT RIP THIS PIC!!! haha.
i wanted to only take photo of my sect! hahs. NOT HER! =x
HAHAHA! ok lahh. i kidding! u can take the pic if u want! (:

OK! i dun tink i'll post band photos! cos i dun tink i look good on that day! haha! SORRY!
but i'll post the pics on the EAST COAST OUTING sooon! haha. ((:

ps: CANT WAIT FOR SHANGHAI PPL BBQ!!!!

ok.
i feel HAPPY! (:
like first time happy since last sat!

FRIDAY.
ok! went out wit CHELTTON TAN.
ahhas. u all might say like "WHAAAAAAAT??!!"
ok. dun get the wrong idea, but we both were longing for company cos we both just. . . . hahs. ok nvm. but the point is we had fun catching up and stuff cos its been real long since we talk. esp this yr afta han yang and zhanglu and all that stuff. so we catch a movie too! and NO! he didnt do anytin funny lahh ppl! (: watch ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS! so funny. sometin to make me happy after all the sad stuff that has been going on. ): boo! then at night, went for chalet! omg! so tired!!!

SATURDAY.

in the mornig, had some amazing race thingy. omg. so fuckin tired... but all i all, was quite fun! made new friends and stuff and i saw abg ciko! omg.. that tall thing! so friendly even after like wat? 5 yrs we nvr talk?! ahhas. at nite had some bbq! then went home. ohoh! was veryVERY happy that day cos of something! hahahas! see! i told u saturday was a day to look forward too! xD the happiness is still lingering! hahs.

SUNDAY.

went to GIANT!
omg. that place is sooooo *&^^%$!! we only shop for so lil stuff and then the bill sum up to be $800+! ok... long story but the cashier made some mistake so my mum got her refund off $500. then went home. ok lahh. i miss out so many details. now chattin wit a lot of ppl. ppl i've always cherish. hahas. looking forward to the last week of hols!! then after that, school!

i try so hard to tire myself out everyday cos i dun want to think about you. it takes so much to just let go. i have to do sometin every second cos if i dun, i'll cry. i dunno wat made it change but we both played the part. i was wrong to have always thought you'd be there. to turn back time is somethin i ALWAYS wish i can. im in no position to say anytin cos everytin is ardy out of its place. i'm over you but it takes time to forget about the memories and heal the wounds. ive never expected it to be like dis. sometin so beautiful, sumtin so precious, sumtin PRICELESS. i purposely sleep till 12 everyday so i know that half a day has passed without you in my mind. i go out and run laps so dat i tire myself easily. i watch nonsensical shows on the tv so that i can fall asleep. every waking moment is hell cos the tears just wont stop. i dunno what else it takes for u to just turn and change ur mind. it feels so cold when i hear ur voice. it feel so distant. i take out every damn letter and memory i had. the tears only start when i read ur reflection during our very first date. so much memories, so long ago. i admit that this would have come sooner or later. but its just so soon. so fresh. so unpredictable.

if there is ONE thing in the world i hate, its gotta be the race and religion.
it divides the human race. it discriminates.
it doesnt even sympathise.
why cant we look beyond the colour of the skin?
why cant we just have the same faith?
i myself ask god so many questions each day.
and everyday, i ask god:
"WHY DIVIDE? IF UR GOD, THEN WHY CREATE SO MANY RELIGIONS."
i know its wrong to question, wrong to ask.
but ive had enough of bearing sometin beyond my control.
i need answers.
i need ppl to explain why things happen.

i just feel so sick and tired.
im tryin to ramble on as much as i can so i get tired and i can just go to sleep without tinkin so much. oh.

I DONT WANNA GO BAND DINNER.
cos theres notin to look forward too. ):
first ever band dinner without the ppl im closest wit.
no azimah, no suffian. bleahh.

i feel so insignificant now.
i hate god but i still beleive him.
i still have faith in him.
but.. IT SUCKS.

UPDATES ON SHANGHAI!!
ok. this is supppose to be their
SCIENCE AND TECH MUSEUM.
dun think its a zoo! lols. xD
it was huge place and everythin looked so pretty!

today was fun!


i totally LOVE my girls.

met izzati and liyana ard 2 and then went JP. had our lunches and then we talk and talk and talk. ok. i soooo love talking to them! told them everything and yup. im so happy i dun have to keep things to myself nimore! it feels so great to share ur probs even if u dun need advice. (: esp wit this 2 girls. walk ard a bit and it feels so good to catch up wit one another and i hope, rellyREALLY hope we do this meet ups once in a while. walked back home wit izzati and had a fun time laughing. OMG. this girl and i can talk about soooo many things. xD I MISS MY LAST SWEETIE, ZIN!