Hi..
Haix.. Feelin so stressed up... Duno y, everytin just came suddenly... Sheesh.. Wat the hell is his *blardy farking problem*??? Infront of me he act like he doesn't gif a damn, onli exchange smiles den when i hear frm other ppl, dey all say wat how he acts is not actuali wat he feels.. So like wat the hell do i do??? Continue liking u or dun gif a *mother fuckin damn* bout u... Do u noe it HURTS?!!! HURT! Yes, hurt... If u dun like me den u *blardy freakinly* avoid me arh... Dun make me haf high xpectations on u... Like wat u did last time... U gaf me mountains of memories to keep but den u expect me to forget it just like dat... wtf! u tink easy is it.. Obviously u dunno the feeling rite??? The *blardy feeling* suck k... Stop all those nosense like goin ard n tellin ppl bout me den those ppl come to me n den add more stress.. Yes i appreciate dat at least dey tell me, but u tink i dun haf feelinghs is it??? U noe wat is embarassment or not??? Noe wat is humiliation or not??? I'm seen like a *blardy idiot* der waitin for u like hell... If u dun like me, fine... Not a problem... Den just tell me straight to my face so i won't like u anymore... Make ur mind clear of ur options lar.. Dun make ppl hurt until every damn second dey think bout u... Nvm, let's drop the topic... Yes, saw him durin band.. Den suddenly everyting come back.. I duno wth is the farkin prob wit me.. I myself dunno whether i'm mad or dissapointed at him... Dat's it...
Bye...

Manzz... So damn tired... Had the sec1 cca orientation... The sec1's are all so choosy... Got a bunch to try out the instruments, den when see the the tuba, dey dun want to try, see the drumset, dun want to try, see the saxaphone, dun want to try.. Den end up all the instruments cannot play... Stupid rite??? But den again got dis sec1 kid he's so cute... We saw him den ask him whether he wants to join band den he eagerly said yes... Man, he's so darn cute... Like p4 kid like dat... Niwae, der were a couple who already had the thought of quiting the band if dey dun like it... So had a HARD time telling dem dey won't regret it... Overall, it was damn tiring... Walk2, like a crazy women.. Wah, den try alot of instruments, miss not tryin the saxaphone.. N i'm in love wit the MALLETS[sp?]!!!! The sound so cool... Hehe... Whee... Spent like loads of time wit him cos fyi, he didn't noe how to play dat thing! Hahs, but seriously, was a nice playin dat thing... Den crap ard wit justin, he's so darn lame..! Den went back wit azimah again was late cos she INSISTED on taking the bus, dunno y... Haiz, if not can see him lar... Hehe.. Read each other's hp, n luckily she didn't see the special msges which i saved... *phew*

Next, frens... Sheesh... Just found out sometin abt one of my frens... Shan't reveal who... Niwae, do u noe how hurt i am seein u alwaes goin ard wit her?? U urself noe dat i dun like her rite, but y keep bein so closed... I tot u were just plain normal frens, but no... I had to find out myself dat u meet her every mornin, go back wit her togeder.. Man, it hurts so damn much... N den when i ask u bout her, u said dat u were just frens, not BEZ FRENS... Like wth... U noe dat i hate her n how i alwaes damn her bein wit us, but u still continue... The reason y i alwaes act mean towards her b'cos i dun want her wit u... I admit, it IS jealousy... U happi now??? Every time when u negelect me, n go ard wit her, i feel so teriblly sad, but i just had to keep quite cos i noe if i speak up, i'll end up fightin wit u... I hate the way she comes between us n den pour all her problems to u... I hate it... I noe dat's just ur character... But i'm so hurt noeing dat der's sometin between u 2 n i dun noe bout it... Hurt... Dat's how i feel... I noe i'm bein a bit sellfish but i want u to noe, dat it reali reali hurts to see u togeder... I dun want to get angry cos i dun wanna lose someone so nice like u, but how do i hide dis burning agony of seeing u wit her everytime... I really feel like i'm losing a fren... I dun wanna lose u cos u're the onli i can click wit but pls understand how i feel... I still rmb dat time when u left me alone when i really needed u to talk u but u left cos she was offerin a free taxi ride... wth... It feels like she was like tryin to steal u away frm me... Sheesh... Haiz, haf to just forget bout it...
Byezz...

Helow..
Whee... Feelin so urrm, nice???
Yeah, nice is the word... Man, i luv my frens..! Today, since it's like our ONLI free day every week, we decided to go to my house... Yeah! 1st house for 2005... Whee... We had LOADS of fun since all of us were there... Man, we rock..! 1st we ate to our heart's content, den we jiwang2, den afta dat we decided to make "trademarks" for our clique... Cool eh...? So far we created 3... We are lookin forward to find another 2 more... Wheee... So fun... I'm thinking of making t-shirts for us... Style rite....? Hehs.. Niwae, had a GREAT time... Planning to complete ALL my incomplete assingnments... I'm soooooo lacking behind... Ish... Must buck up liaoz... N in skool, HE talk to me... Whoohoo... He's soooo freakin FRIENDLY.....! ahakz... N tmr haf band... Whee... It feel like ages since the last time i had band.... Haha... Btw, my family are goin to the Tiger Cup finals dis Sunday... Whee... I'm gonna wear red manzz....!! Well, i tink dat's it...
Byezz....

Harlow...
Alright den... I haven't update for some time rite...? Hahs... Was darn busy n i tink someone keep hacking into my account and sometimes the templates just dissapear.. Funny rite... So took time to redo... Gonna put pics when i really haf the time... It's not like really ready yet... Niwae... Loads haf been happening... School's just average... Just the way i like it... Onli sometimes the teachers are to fast... Or, is it dat i'm just tooo darn slow..?? Hehe... But still can cope lar... N i luv my frens man... They're are becoming so more hilarious... We laugh until we cry sia somtimes... Haha... Life for everyone of us is like the same... A balance of GOOD things and bad things... So it's cool... Woah... But i tink the luckiest among us currently is Zin... Man, she's darn lucky, but dun put ur expectations too high k darl, later become like me... *sobs* hehe... No lar, just kiddin... Band's great... Blah, blah, blah... I do agree our standard has drop but i tink we'll prove ourselfs worthy... =) Relationships.... Oh well, currently notin hot... Still not sure whether i like him.... N as for the other one stop bein sellfish arh... Ppl got thier own lifes to take care bout... I cannot take care bout u all the time... Understand lar... Well, niwae, i tink dat's it... N yar btw, yesterday, HE sent me back home... Whee.... Cool eh... He's darn nice lar... Haiz.. If onli........ Haiz, nvm... All for now..
Byez...

Helo..
Had band, was late, but escaped frm punishment... Cool eh?? Haha... Was darn boring... Sects., full band, didn't play apha... BORED! N i've realise dat i still do like him... I'm not able to deny it... Yeah, it hurts... But i dunno y i still cling on to him... Haiz... Forget bout it... Gtg... Hope Singapore wins tonite!!! Best of luck RED LIONS!!
Byezzz....

Helo..!
K,k... Not been updatin 4 quite somtime... I've been darn bz n now i finally, n i mean FINALLY haf the time to update! Yeah.. Loads to write... Since i can sleep late tonite, so write long2 k??
Let's see...
1st day:
Found out Mr Seng was our form teacher... Whoots... He's cool but a lil lame ah... But niwae, the most surprisin thing is dat i was selected as the class moniteress! Hahs... Can u beleive dat... Me n Jun Yang are like now head of the class comitee.. Cool eh?? But niwae, so far, i think both of us r doin well... *beams*.. Lessons continued like normal... Ms Kaur is our lit teacher, Mr wong is our maths, Mrs Constance Wong our eng. teacher n i tink the rest is the same... So far not bad...
2nd day:
It was stressful k... Had to like settle class things a lot... So stress... But got use to it... Had band afta dat... was fun lar.. Went back wit feroz n azimah... He, very swit sia... Yeah, talk alot bout him, n yeah, u gess it, feroz, noes bout it... Darn... Niwaes itwas great...
3rd day:
Like normal, stress again... But it was fun.. There was hmwk... So slept like quite late...
4th day:
Damn Miss Kaur.... She complained to Mr Seng dat all the malay gals was sittin togeder n she thinks dat we're racists..! Wat the hell... Was so pissed, n so we had to change places n i end up sittin beside Nic.. He's a great dude man.. He helped me alot in studys n esp. abt all those class thingies... Thanx dude...! N yeah, he told me one secret n i end up tellin my secret to him... Cool eh?? All thnx to Miss Kaur... MuAhAAHa...
Today..:
Same thing... But had band... N 4 the same reason, i'm still pissed... Y does he haf to go ard tellin ppl bout us??? Sto0o0o0o0opid... Niwae, went back wit azimah... We really can click u noe... N shes great lar... Or mayb shes a great help to me... Haha... She tell me LOADS bout him, n i wanna noe more... Hahaha....
N so, dat's it.... Bein a monitress ain't simple man... Wit teachers chasing went ur other classmates dun hand in hmwk, the responsibility to collect work, be a role model n many more... Stress... But i tink bein a monitress will help me alot cos now i haf to hand in my hmwk promtly n must neva fail any tests cos lata paisey sia... Hehe... Let's take dat as a resolution for dis year... K, so dat's it... N i may not be updatin regularly... Dat's it...
Byezzzz.....

Helo!!
Hehe.. It's like the 4 mins into the 2nd day of new year... Haha, was into my homework durin the 1st day, so wasn't able to update... Hehe, last minute do everytin... As alwaes, dat's my routine... Niwaes, new year, spent time wit my family... Whee... Able to forget bout him already... Now i realise, he sux..! Hehe... He was the reason i wasn't able to apreciate things dat was infront of me... Bloody asshole... *evil grins* I really hope dis new year is all bout frens, studies n family... Notice boys is outta my list...??? Hehe, how i wish dat cud really happen... K, suppose to be findin my homework stuff... So gtg... Haf a great 2005... N yeah, Swiss Winds will rock 2005... Hehe..
Byez....