ok.. today was suppose to be happy.
cos i FINALLY figured out wat to get him.
(:

BUT.

i was greeted by sad news.
almost whole of december no seein each other.
band tour.
den he got holiday.
): ~boooooo.

woah. so long ardy nvr update!
okok. i haf sad things to say.

i haf less than 12 mnths to o levels.
i haf about 5 months in band.
i haf about 1 mnth till the year ends.
i haf about 3 wks to band tour.
i haf about 2 wks to his bdae.
i haf about 1 wk to 101204.

gee. im freakin out.

ok. had swiss open house today!
went to sch wit ahh... HIM. (((:
after so very long.....!
saw liyana, zin and izzati!
OMG lahh! I MISS THEM SO F***IN MUCH!
okok. darn boring luh.
didnt go home wit him though.. ):

andand...
i dun want to pass out frm band so quickly.
i realise dat,
its ok if i dun haf dat SSG rank.
its ok if i dun haf the blardy landyard.
its ok if i am not in the senior council.
its ok if i dun haf dat right to rule the band.
its ok if i dun get all those opportunities dat i wished for since i was a kid.

wat matters is my passion and commitment.
yes, der are sumtins i really wished i had.
but i need to just be happy wit wat i haf.
so frm now till i pass out,
i only haf ONE single aim dat is to:
improve my section! yeah. (:

SWISS WINDS. =D

and hanyang gets to spend his whole day wit ERICSOR.
wtf. hahas.
and he says its inspring. =.-"
LaughOutLOUD.sss

ok. waitin for the prince to come online.
he's takin very long.
or mayb.
im just too early! hahahas.
(: ok. adios!

p.s: the only reason my post is very colourful is bcos im super bored currently! ahahhs. :p

-love needs assurance. (:

haha. im a happy kid!
=D
ytd was just so wrong... ):

aniwae.
had a long nice chat wit him.
and...
things are ok!! ((((:
haha. LOVES.

GOIN TO TOWN!
haha. after so very long!
gonna shopshopshop!
cant wait! dats y i woke up so damn early.
hahahas.
had breakfast wit mum den she gaf $$$.
xD

best man called ytd nite.
hahas. slept on the phone AGAIN!
LOLS.

i want to go VIVO!
wit my gals. (:
okok? we'll just walk walk even if we haf no money ok?
i really miss u guys! (:
so set ah?
"ok set!"
~whee..! super high.
MUST GO OUT AH ALL 3 OF U!

and i cant wait for BAND TOUR.
hahahas. (:
so much freedom for 5 days.
nobody to bother me also.
hahs.

ok. i'll stop here.
~chiao.

hoho.
my comp screen is darn big!
no need to scroll so much! hahs.
n my messenger live is back. (:
~whee! *webcamwebcam!!*

today. haha.
had band...
verySUPERNICE.
it was raining super heavy!
lols. ~kissin in the rain!
dumb ppl lahh! (:
went back late, kena scold.
hahaha.

and im involved in open house rehearsal.
)))))))): im very sad.
i know its my chance to be involve in dis kinda things,
but i want to go out wit him!!
gahh! worst wk luhh!

sec3 jln raye cancelled.
-i feel like lauging. but at the same time sad.
hahs.

im gettin new maid! hahs.
very happy and excited! (:

ok! he's online.
hahahahahs. xD
byez.

i saw them walkin hand in hand.

pants pulled up, ready to run.

they didnt even looked at me.

all dey cared was the fun.

without even a blink of an eye,

they were gone.

sometimes i just wish sumone wud be der to just sit n listen to me cry. wat do u do when sumtin u've work so hard for turns its back on you..

~phew. IM SICK.
didnt go band today. haiz..
): ytd. had NCC OCC POP perf.
and den.....
talk to weiting. thnx gal. (:
i didnt know i wud cry. hah.
made me tink bout other stuff while we were standin.

ooh ya. nxt wk i'll still be busy as a bee.
band prac all wk except wed n thurs.
BUT. den got jln raye. ):

when to go out wit him?

ahh.. cant type nimore.
my head splittin.
gonna go rest... (:
~chao!

-welcome to my life.

i reali got no mood to type wat happen so far.

BUT.

all 3 days haf been filled wit joy n bliss!
very happy! (:
on tuesday...
very touched by ur willingness to accompany me!
(: hees.
dun be so upsey about ur ban ok.

i feel really happy lahh!! (:
hahs. dunno why. hahas.
ok. end of here! bye! =D

-woxiangni...-
((:

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend,

Somewhere along in the bitterness.

And I would have stayed up

with you all night.

Had I known how to save a life.

ok.
i've set my proirities rite.
1) complete ALL hol. assignment b4 december comes!
2) look forward to BAND DINNER/LUNCH! (:
3) look forward to BAND TOUR. (:
4) spending time wit ZIYL. cant wait!!
5) spend time wit him! hahs. *hope so lahh*
6) swiss open house. haha. dis is weird eh.
7) REVISE MY SCIENCES FOR THE RE-TEST.
8) meet ms seah for chem tuition PRONTO.
9) find some peace btwn ma dad n me.
and lastly.......

10) wait for 10DEC2006.
-2 yrs afta dat very day. =x

-and u pray to god he hears you.

today again. really not my day. ):

physics sux lahh!
was late den yada yada yada.
dat fucked up face.
knncb lah. so attitude!!

band was i dunno.
hah. i'll do wat im suppose to do n den be gone!
ahahas.
"i dun want to go for band tour."
): i really dun want.
since i was 7 yrs old, all the teachers say dat will go to the land of AUSSIE.
but time n again cancelled and dis is wat i get.
PENANG. wat te F..
5days. in msia. wit nobody close. no hp.
why azimah cannt go??? bleahh~.
and i rather play alone den go wit sum dunno-how-to-play-jr.
im tired of redoin the same things all over again.

father.
u made me disappointed today.
not the fact dat u didnt u let me go for the dinner bcos i myself in the end didnt wanna go. but over the fact dat u haf to rub it in and den go back on ur words. fuckin shit. enuf is enuf.
hell. u screwed up my dinner.
my one chance to bond wit the ppl up der.
and u had to spoil it.. wadev.
nxt wk. how bout no jln raye?
hell yeah. mayb dats wat u want.
tell me earlier yah so i dun haf to be sad on the day itself.
hah. BOO U.
oh well. like as if he reads it.

ur call came at the rite time.
thnx. (:

lets not contd on the shitty events of ytd. hah. cos now i feel happy!

TUESDAY.
azimah join my section.
she's so crappy luh! (: hahas.
den he waited for me!
haha. shaiz kpo only lahh.
n blardy hell.
no.4 uni rox lahh!
so smart lookin! hahas. (:
reach home den slack den zZz.
=D

WEDNESDAY.
hmm. oh! phy remedial.
and.....
suck balls lahh.
i clean forget wat i did.
but it was a VERY VERY sian day.
food made me happy dat day! hahs.

TODAY.
i luv today!
phy sucks lahh. ):
but den after day went lunch!!
hahs.
1st time i tink we talk alot of stuff.
veryHAPPY~!
den went to renee's house to take stuff.
haha. FINALLY talk to iz!
she rox my world lahh.
den went home watched HEART.
so saaaddddd show. ):
den here i am! hoho.
after a nice loooong chat wit him!
n den he had to go to pasar malam bcos of MONKEY!
haha. idiot lah. but nvm!
tmr!!! hahas. ((:

and he read my blog!
ahhhhh! haha.
(: i tink its cool. lols.
so u'll know dat,
i njoyed today! hees.
xD

i fuckin GIVE UP!
get dat in ur shit holes smarty pants.
if nobody frm my sect wanna go, den let it be!! cos ders just simply no use tryin to call back every darn person! i've tolerated enuf shit frm band and dis is the limit. I GIVE UP. ders no use tryin. no use pretendin. i really feel like diein. =x

DAMN IT.
):

i cant beleive im givin up on sometin so close to my heart since i was 7 yrs old. i've grown it wit it. live wit it. y take my only source of happiness. i luv band. i really do. but why all these problems now. when i really just wanna enjoy. to hell man. i dun want to see my sect die. i dun want to see the band die. but wat can i do?! fuckin shit.

C-R-I-E-D.
-for the VERY last time for IT.

hahaha. (:
i'm CONTENTED.

FRIDAY.
had band! ((: hahs.
played 7th night. @$%!&!
w/o warning!!
solo sounded so un-solish.
hahas. but not bad!
hee. (:
lunch! hahs.
best part of the day!
~lalala. xD
went back home super tired!
slept on the phone while talkin to sumone.
SORRY! hahahs.

SATURDAY.
hoho. open house!
didnt go band. wasnt alowed to. =x
aniwae. haha. i haf a lack of girl frens.
hahas.
MARCUS.hanyang.junwei.guonian.shaiz.irfan
came my house.
damn dumb ah..
dey eat alot!! lols.
to my mly frens didnt invite u guys cos u all comin on anoder day rite when we go jln raye, so keep it for later. hahs.
figured no gals frm the class wud wanna go.
so yahh.
only the boys.
but still, fun lahh.
HAPPY. ((:
hahahahas.

ok. today not much.
more $$. hahas.
i suddenly dun want to go to band tour.
wat in the world to look forward to??
hahas. i want band camp though.

n i BADLY miss
ZIN.IZZATI.LIYANA.
dang. my fault lahh...
always go out wit dem, BUT.
yahh. go out sumday ok??
PLS. only us. loads to catch up im sure!!
dun want ZIYL to disappear. ok?
((: and IZZATI:
dang woman!! u took pic wit him lahh!
nvr tell me! wats dis???? hurr.
hahas. im sure u njoyd prestige ehh? hahas.
u lucky lady. NOT FAIR!!
lols.

ok. i tink dis is a long post.
so i'll end by sayin:
GD LUCK TO ALL THE 'O' LVL TAKERS TMR!
hoho. do ur best aites. ((: