i feel SUCKY.
i dunno why. ): goin out later. haiz..
i want band prac!

anyway, we dun talk much anymore. i feel lost. haiz.. i dun want to regret dis decision. mayb when sch reopens things wud be better? hope so.. really hope so. we dun even meet nimore. ok lahh.. must understand his situation too. ok lahh. at least is ound positive! (:

ok lahh.. stop here.
i miss cheltton. hahahahs.
hope he won the basketball match. (:

hoho. MERRY X'MAS! =D
im super SHAGGED, but im still hype.
ok. BAND TOUR is over.
so is BAND LUNCH. ((((: so fast so fast!
really enjoyed this to events.
SWISSWINDS!! hee. we ROCKED PENANG. ~duh!

BandTour'06.
-PENANG.











GROUP 1! (:









GROPU 1 @ the airport. (((:










band exchange wit ST GEORGE GIRLS SCH.
so fun!! (: they rox!!










EUPHONIUMITES!
they were impressed by our high notes and our instruments!
~wheeee! x)











failed attempt by ms seah to play drumset. ;p










me and azimah! (: lovesHER!









handsome trumpet guy! xD sorry dear. hees.











on the plane back to s'pore! me and jacob! (:
see nicholas tryin to act cute? =p hahahahahas.










siyuan! she's PRETTY! (:










ME AND MS SEAH! (:









me and nic! he roxx!!




















some views frm the plane. everythin looks so tiny! x)











touchdown! me n chingkit! (:












grp 1 gals. (:












me azimah and jeremy! (:
jeremy is freakin lammmeeee! hahs. our asst. grp leader!
hahs.









i got roses too! xD

ok.. so dat was band tour frm the day we start till end.
got more pics but very lazy to upload.
haahhas. it was really fun lahH! ((((:
SWINDS ROCKS FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!

BandLunch'06.
-BUKITBATOK CSC. (:

EUPHONIUMITES '06! (:




































































so dats it! hahas. i love my life! (:
today just came back frm CHATSWORTH.
hoho. more than 12 hrs of swimming pool for 3 days straight.
(: fun!! ok lahh. stop here.
byez!!

2 more days till ur back!
missing YOU. ))):

hoho. okok.
quick quick update before i go.
before dat.
HAPPY B'DAE TO MARCUS. (:
hahs. hope u enjoy ur day ok? ((:

ytd too marked the beginning of somethin special.
i love you and i'll never let u go.
hees. =D

ok. swisswinds flyin to PENANG frm today to 18th.
ok.i'll miss sooooooooooooo many ppl!
dun worry yahh. souveniors[sp?] will come. (:
ok. SWISSWINDS ROCK THE HALL!!!
just like we did in ytd parade. (: ~wheeeeets!

ok. dun miss me ok ppl?
cos i will miss everyone esp YOU! xD
OK. actually im freakin out.
skali the plane crash. =x hahahahahas.
ok lahh. ~chiao!

i had no intention of updatin when i came online.
BUT. today is

101206.

two years after dat very day.
how i miss you and those times.
i wont say more but after so very long...
i've FINALLY moved on.

thanks for all those times.
thanks for the memory...

-u'll nvr know how much u're worth in my eyes.

CINTA.

And when you forget that we had a date

Or that look that you get when you show up late

Baby I love you, I love you anyway

Heres my promise made tonight

You can count on me for life

Thats when i love you

yay! like FINALLY i got time to update!
(((: hahahas.

TUESDAY.
had band. went off early.
den had CCKS CONCERT.
~whee! ok lahh. the band was ok. trombone sound very nice. (:
hah. yup. aunty send me home. so dat was my day.

WEDNESDAY.
gahh. had band again! den had to go to NCC HQ.
so tired luh. changed uniform den went down to novena.
someone made me real upset dat day. ): hahas.
met my step-mum to acconpany her other kids watch barney.
so tired! den after dat went to toa payoh.
bleah. damn tired ah. reach home ard 10.

THURSDAY.
had band again! full day prac.
haha. it was a very plesant evening. x)
thanx for the wait. (:

FRIDAY.
band again! got parade. my hands are aching!
): bleahhhh~! scolded everyday for the same reasons.

TODAY.
band den wnt shoppin wit azimah.
we had lunch den i go home.
yupyup. im like dead ardy. ):
super TIRED.

okok.. besides dat. i wanna play piano again!
dis days spent alot of time on it.
veryhappy! (: hahas.

and another happy thing.
im in the same room as azimah for band tour!
~wheeee!!!!!!! hahahhas. =D
we're gonna crap all nite and do crazy stuff lahh.
hahas. cant wait cant wait!
i like airplane food! (: hahas.
kenneth also same grp as me! so yup. (:
no worries lah... (:

ok. im done.
i wanna go snore. hahaha.
i sound so "pig." haha.

p:s: my days haf been filled wit happiness. (:

-edited-

finally changed skin! (:
did alot of editin and FINALLY...
tadaaaa! (:
yeah! ((: love the song!!! hahas.

today was sooooo awesome. (:
hahahahs.
just talkin wit u, makes me feel so HAPPY.
~wheee!!
and den met aisyah!
haha. i miss her fuckin truckloads! (((:
and and,
i got a bag of cookies! ~lalala. =D
freakin nice lah can? yay!

ooh ya. tmr band!
JIA YOU PPL! (((:
dun make MChew angry aite??
we've done it before and we'll do it again.
yay! onebandonesound. (:

ok. he's leavin me on 19th. ):
~bleahh.. timing so sway.

ok. gtg chiao.
dad's back! and and... dun want to quarrel wit him sia. =x
okok. bye!! =D

ok.. today was suppose to be happy.
cos i FINALLY figured out wat to get him.
(:

BUT.

i was greeted by sad news.
almost whole of december no seein each other.
band tour.
den he got holiday.
): ~boooooo.

woah. so long ardy nvr update!
okok. i haf sad things to say.

i haf less than 12 mnths to o levels.
i haf about 5 months in band.
i haf about 1 mnth till the year ends.
i haf about 3 wks to band tour.
i haf about 2 wks to his bdae.
i haf about 1 wk to 101204.

gee. im freakin out.

ok. had swiss open house today!
went to sch wit ahh... HIM. (((:
after so very long.....!
saw liyana, zin and izzati!
OMG lahh! I MISS THEM SO F***IN MUCH!
okok. darn boring luh.
didnt go home wit him though.. ):

andand...
i dun want to pass out frm band so quickly.
i realise dat,
its ok if i dun haf dat SSG rank.
its ok if i dun haf the blardy landyard.
its ok if i am not in the senior council.
its ok if i dun haf dat right to rule the band.
its ok if i dun get all those opportunities dat i wished for since i was a kid.

wat matters is my passion and commitment.
yes, der are sumtins i really wished i had.
but i need to just be happy wit wat i haf.
so frm now till i pass out,
i only haf ONE single aim dat is to:
improve my section! yeah. (:

SWISS WINDS. =D

and hanyang gets to spend his whole day wit ERICSOR.
wtf. hahas.
and he says its inspring. =.-"
LaughOutLOUD.sss

ok. waitin for the prince to come online.
he's takin very long.
or mayb.
im just too early! hahahas.
(: ok. adios!

p.s: the only reason my post is very colourful is bcos im super bored currently! ahahhs. :p

-love needs assurance. (:

haha. im a happy kid!
=D
ytd was just so wrong... ):

aniwae.
had a long nice chat wit him.
and...
things are ok!! ((((:
haha. LOVES.

GOIN TO TOWN!
haha. after so very long!
gonna shopshopshop!
cant wait! dats y i woke up so damn early.
hahahas.
had breakfast wit mum den she gaf $$$.
xD

best man called ytd nite.
hahas. slept on the phone AGAIN!
LOLS.

i want to go VIVO!
wit my gals. (:
okok? we'll just walk walk even if we haf no money ok?
i really miss u guys! (:
so set ah?
"ok set!"
~whee..! super high.
MUST GO OUT AH ALL 3 OF U!

and i cant wait for BAND TOUR.
hahahas. (:
so much freedom for 5 days.
nobody to bother me also.
hahs.

ok. i'll stop here.
~chiao.

hoho.
my comp screen is darn big!
no need to scroll so much! hahs.
n my messenger live is back. (:
~whee! *webcamwebcam!!*

today. haha.
had band...
verySUPERNICE.
it was raining super heavy!
lols. ~kissin in the rain!
dumb ppl lahh! (:
went back late, kena scold.
hahaha.

and im involved in open house rehearsal.
)))))))): im very sad.
i know its my chance to be involve in dis kinda things,
but i want to go out wit him!!
gahh! worst wk luhh!

sec3 jln raye cancelled.
-i feel like lauging. but at the same time sad.
hahs.

im gettin new maid! hahs.
very happy and excited! (:

ok! he's online.
hahahahahs. xD
byez.

i saw them walkin hand in hand.

pants pulled up, ready to run.

they didnt even looked at me.

all dey cared was the fun.

without even a blink of an eye,

they were gone.

sometimes i just wish sumone wud be der to just sit n listen to me cry. wat do u do when sumtin u've work so hard for turns its back on you..

~phew. IM SICK.
didnt go band today. haiz..
): ytd. had NCC OCC POP perf.
and den.....
talk to weiting. thnx gal. (:
i didnt know i wud cry. hah.
made me tink bout other stuff while we were standin.

ooh ya. nxt wk i'll still be busy as a bee.
band prac all wk except wed n thurs.
BUT. den got jln raye. ):

when to go out wit him?

ahh.. cant type nimore.
my head splittin.
gonna go rest... (:
~chao!

-welcome to my life.

i reali got no mood to type wat happen so far.

BUT.

all 3 days haf been filled wit joy n bliss!
very happy! (:
on tuesday...
very touched by ur willingness to accompany me!
(: hees.
dun be so upsey about ur ban ok.

i feel really happy lahh!! (:
hahs. dunno why. hahas.
ok. end of here! bye! =D

-woxiangni...-
((:

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend,

Somewhere along in the bitterness.

And I would have stayed up

with you all night.

Had I known how to save a life.

ok.
i've set my proirities rite.
1) complete ALL hol. assignment b4 december comes!
2) look forward to BAND DINNER/LUNCH! (:
3) look forward to BAND TOUR. (:
4) spending time wit ZIYL. cant wait!!
5) spend time wit him! hahs. *hope so lahh*
6) swiss open house. haha. dis is weird eh.
7) REVISE MY SCIENCES FOR THE RE-TEST.
8) meet ms seah for chem tuition PRONTO.
9) find some peace btwn ma dad n me.
and lastly.......

10) wait for 10DEC2006.
-2 yrs afta dat very day. =x

-and u pray to god he hears you.

today again. really not my day. ):

physics sux lahh!
was late den yada yada yada.
dat fucked up face.
knncb lah. so attitude!!

band was i dunno.
hah. i'll do wat im suppose to do n den be gone!
ahahas.
"i dun want to go for band tour."
): i really dun want.
since i was 7 yrs old, all the teachers say dat will go to the land of AUSSIE.
but time n again cancelled and dis is wat i get.
PENANG. wat te F..
5days. in msia. wit nobody close. no hp.
why azimah cannt go??? bleahh~.
and i rather play alone den go wit sum dunno-how-to-play-jr.
im tired of redoin the same things all over again.

father.
u made me disappointed today.
not the fact dat u didnt u let me go for the dinner bcos i myself in the end didnt wanna go. but over the fact dat u haf to rub it in and den go back on ur words. fuckin shit. enuf is enuf.
hell. u screwed up my dinner.
my one chance to bond wit the ppl up der.
and u had to spoil it.. wadev.
nxt wk. how bout no jln raye?
hell yeah. mayb dats wat u want.
tell me earlier yah so i dun haf to be sad on the day itself.
hah. BOO U.
oh well. like as if he reads it.

ur call came at the rite time.
thnx. (:

lets not contd on the shitty events of ytd. hah. cos now i feel happy!

TUESDAY.
azimah join my section.
she's so crappy luh! (: hahas.
den he waited for me!
haha. shaiz kpo only lahh.
n blardy hell.
no.4 uni rox lahh!
so smart lookin! hahas. (:
reach home den slack den zZz.
=D

WEDNESDAY.
hmm. oh! phy remedial.
and.....
suck balls lahh.
i clean forget wat i did.
but it was a VERY VERY sian day.
food made me happy dat day! hahs.

TODAY.
i luv today!
phy sucks lahh. ):
but den after day went lunch!!
hahs.
1st time i tink we talk alot of stuff.
veryHAPPY~!
den went to renee's house to take stuff.
haha. FINALLY talk to iz!
she rox my world lahh.
den went home watched HEART.
so saaaddddd show. ):
den here i am! hoho.
after a nice loooong chat wit him!
n den he had to go to pasar malam bcos of MONKEY!
haha. idiot lah. but nvm!
tmr!!! hahas. ((:

and he read my blog!
ahhhhh! haha.
(: i tink its cool. lols.
so u'll know dat,
i njoyed today! hees.
xD

i fuckin GIVE UP!
get dat in ur shit holes smarty pants.
if nobody frm my sect wanna go, den let it be!! cos ders just simply no use tryin to call back every darn person! i've tolerated enuf shit frm band and dis is the limit. I GIVE UP. ders no use tryin. no use pretendin. i really feel like diein. =x

DAMN IT.
):

i cant beleive im givin up on sometin so close to my heart since i was 7 yrs old. i've grown it wit it. live wit it. y take my only source of happiness. i luv band. i really do. but why all these problems now. when i really just wanna enjoy. to hell man. i dun want to see my sect die. i dun want to see the band die. but wat can i do?! fuckin shit.

C-R-I-E-D.
-for the VERY last time for IT.

hahaha. (:
i'm CONTENTED.

FRIDAY.
had band! ((: hahs.
played 7th night. @$%!&!
w/o warning!!
solo sounded so un-solish.
hahas. but not bad!
hee. (:
lunch! hahs.
best part of the day!
~lalala. xD
went back home super tired!
slept on the phone while talkin to sumone.
SORRY! hahahs.

SATURDAY.
hoho. open house!
didnt go band. wasnt alowed to. =x
aniwae. haha. i haf a lack of girl frens.
hahas.
MARCUS.hanyang.junwei.guonian.shaiz.irfan
came my house.
damn dumb ah..
dey eat alot!! lols.
to my mly frens didnt invite u guys cos u all comin on anoder day rite when we go jln raye, so keep it for later. hahs.
figured no gals frm the class wud wanna go.
so yahh.
only the boys.
but still, fun lahh.
HAPPY. ((:
hahahahas.

ok. today not much.
more $$. hahas.
i suddenly dun want to go to band tour.
wat in the world to look forward to??
hahas. i want band camp though.

n i BADLY miss
ZIN.IZZATI.LIYANA.
dang. my fault lahh...
always go out wit dem, BUT.
yahh. go out sumday ok??
PLS. only us. loads to catch up im sure!!
dun want ZIYL to disappear. ok?
((: and IZZATI:
dang woman!! u took pic wit him lahh!
nvr tell me! wats dis???? hurr.
hahas. im sure u njoyd prestige ehh? hahas.
u lucky lady. NOT FAIR!!
lols.

ok. i tink dis is a long post.
so i'll end by sayin:
GD LUCK TO ALL THE 'O' LVL TAKERS TMR!
hoho. do ur best aites. ((:

hoho. i feel really not in the mood.
ok. updates on fri n sat.

FRIDAY.
had some really nice time spent.
hahs.
FINALLY found my pocket stapler.
hahs. been lookin ard for donkey yrs since pri sch.
hahahahs.
and finally in some ULU land,
i found it. (:
veryHAPPY. bcos of a stapler.
=.-"

played badminton at dis ulu CC.
hahs. FUN!!
nice time spent wit dem.
jas.jaz.jing.xuan.xinyi.edward.nic."axiaodi"
thnx for the racket HY!
and nic sweat ALOT!
hahs. so funny.
den went for visitin at dat area also.
*kechin-keching*
~whee...
so comes sat.

SATURDAY.
hoho. really a
"fucked-up-sway-day."
in e morn, woke up wit a very very sore body. muscles were aching like shit! ): but still force myself to go out visitin luh. den yahh.. walk ard. my shoes were hurting. the taxi keep smellin of dis weird smell, had headAches. and den worst part!!!

we were frm FAJAR shoppin centre. den we wanted to take a cab luh. den i dunno how i put my hand near the door der den suddenly! my uncle at e front sit close the door ramming my poor fingers. ahhhH! pain like hell. my middles finger swollen. ahh.. so poor thing rite? )': cant do anytin wit my left hand. keep hurtin. im typin dis ntry at half the speed i always do. bahh!

today.
i dunno lahh.
body still pain ahh.
hahs. and i havent eat my ferrero rocher n dis maltesers sumone gaf me.
hahs.. i feel LOVED. (:

SQUIRRELSARECUTE!
hell yeah. (:
dey are nice too!
hahs. =p

oK lahh.
end here. bye~!

at the end of the day i want u to kow dat i chose u bcos of a feeling i trust my heart to haf. DUN take advantage of me. pls. cos i dun want to regret. thnx for everytin babe.

hoho. (:
wednesday was nice lahh.
jas.jaz.kexuan.jing.chel.nic.edward.marcus.
thnx! (=

n today.
went to sch really no mood.
duno why.
den he suddenly took out dis BOX of
FERRERO ROCHER.
hahs. happiness lah k! (:
totally like didnt expect it.
whole day was HAPPY lahh.
slack throughout den PTM.
damn sian. plan study timetable.
blahh... nvm lah. anytin to improve.
yuP! (:

aniwae. just wonderin..

why do we always hurt the ones we hold dearest to our heart?

i find it odd. yahh.

its not only in relationships lahh. its like wit ur family, ur passion, freinds.

why do we always hurt them.

haiz.. really feel guilty. ):

and so fast ardy..

the year is comin to an end.
the past will always be sweet n painful.
but i tink i've moved on. (:

ok lahh.
my life now. quite blessed i must say?
"slow n steady wins the race."
just as long as we both know,
den its ok ardy liao.. (:

n i tink...
now i very rude to my parents.
haiz.. its just dat i dun like it when they dunno wat im goin thru den dey simply assume things anyhow. den accuse me like hell. not fair lahh. ):

ok.. i goin ardy lahh.
to all.
SELAMAT HARI RAYE!
(: spread e love ya!

today really got no mood.
i hate it when i do things for the sake of just doin it.
i hate it!
i hate doin things w/o an aim.
so today suck.
really. )':

why is it dat happiness come wit a heavy price?
dis pass month has been notin but blessings for me.
and i tink dats why when too much comes in my way, i feel tired.
i feel like givin up.

to YOU.
thnx for comfortin me just now.
you may not spend all ur evenings or nites wit me, but ur sacrifices.
blow me away. (:
ok. so u cant make it on thursday.
nvm luh... )':

today was tirin.
clear the whole house.
eee.. dis yr really no mood to celebrate.
but nvm. for the $$.
hahaha. its ok.

ok. i gtg.
BYE! (:

u mean person!

hahas.

u can go on thursday!!!!!!!!!!

~wheee! ((:

lie to me summore. hahahs.

u can go! U CAN GO!

thursday quickly come!

xD

if ders ONE luckiest girl on earth today, dat would be
memeME.
hahahahas! (=

today was just i dunno.
the feelings growin n im lovin it.
haha.
thnk u U YOU!!
i knew i took darn long but u patiently waited.
hahs. thnx! ((:
really didnt expect it.

haha. tmr.
maybe.JUSTmaybe.
one more happy day for me.

; cos i can be just wat i am n be accepted when im wit u.

i love ytd so so much.
but now.
im feelin guiltier den ever!
*hurrr.

oral was screwed!!!
worstWORST oral ever.
but. met him den happy lahhh.
hahahs. (:

mum's hospitalised again.
sadsadSAD. )':
no mood to celebrate hari raya.
the house seems so unorganized.
prays hard dat she quickly recover.

not much to update really.
just hope results are good den WONT be retained.

ya. ok. gtg.
i doubt anybody understand the nxt paragraph.
so yah. byez! (:

just turn away and never come back.

go sumwhere so far away

so dat i dun feel dat i need you.

cos if i didnt know how you'd do me,

i wont care. i wont even wanna try.

but dis mistake of givin u a chance,

screw my life. n soon it will screw urs.

go, run. FLY.

to someplace only u know.

cos i cant bear to see u hurt.

be strong. stand on ur own.

cos dis time round,

i know im the one who do u wrong.

; whenSORRYreally isthehardestword.

seven random things about me:
1) i like to be loved! (:
2) i wish i was a rich kid.
3) i heart my class laods!
4) speak n live in GERMANY.
5) i secretly wish i cud play the cornet.
6) my sciences sucks!
7) sumthins are too good to be true. (:

seven random songs at the moment:
1) LET U GO- ashley parker angel.
2) Love-Keyshia Cole.
3) Too Little Too Late- Jojo.
4) Because You Live- Jesse McCartney.
5) Why Dont You Kiss Her- Jesse McCartney.
6) Call Me When Your Sober- Evanessence.
7) Cant Smile Without You.

seven things i like most:
1) PHILLIP LAHM. #16. xD
2) my V3i. hahaha.
3) SWISS WINDS!
4) HIM!!! *hearts.
5) a.maths! ~whoots!
6) zac efron.
7) ZIYL. ((:

seven things that scare me:
1) DEATH. =x
2) failure.
3) retained. ):
4) losing YOU.
5) being BETRAYED.
6) losing ZIYL.
7) hypocrites.

seven things i say most:
1) suck balls. (:
*only u know! hahaha.
2) go and die. =x
3) hoho.
4) wad the....
5) hahas.
6) fish!
7) lahh.

seven people to do this:
anybody who is anybody. yahh. (:

ytd. was ahhh.
thnk youyouYOU for bein der.
(: feel so much better.
xD

hoho. ok.
i should not be bloggin BUT.
bored lahh.
very tired.
AMATHS day today.
~wohoo.
BINOMIAL is so easy AFTA u do so many questions!
so much to say!!

GEOG PAPER.
err.. reallyREALLYREALLY hope can pass!
cos i know i study real hard for dat!
yep. needa pass my humans lahh.
so i realli needa marks!
i went an organize my answers den re-write so in the end not time.
=.-" hurr. very angry wit myself.

AMATHS PAPER 1.
efforts not wasted!! ~yay!
was nice lahh.
feels so nice when u can just do one ques afta the other!
yay! (((:

PHYSICS PAPER.
gone. i knew it lahh.
didnt put in much effort.
so yahh.. very disappointed wit myself.
))): the paper was easy but yet i cudnt do.
forget formula ALOT. )):
damn careless!
ahh.. dun talk bout physics.

CHEM PAPER.
studied real hard.
but the paper suck lahh.
i forgot the bloody HABER PROCESS.
he also foget! hahas.
funny lahh. (:
hayati, hanyang n marcus says:
"wit ALOT of luck. den MAYBE we can pass."
hahas. drop chem drop chem!
tsktsk. ):

EMATH PAPER 1.
ehh. reali dunno whether can pass or not.
alot of careless.
no time to check!
if i fail den i really got no one else to blame but myself!
i dunno why i was so rush but still no time!
argh. ): blardy scared.

ok. so papers left are history, amaths1, emaths1.
VERY IMPORTANT!
it will break or make me!
hahas. so no time to slack.

ok. niwae.
dis days haf been preetey good.
hahahs. i like my mornings! ((:
n i love dis past few days esp ytd!
hees. (:

okok. exams over in 3 days.
afta dat den its time to party!!
~whoopedooo! (:
okok. gtg. BYEZ!!

-DANG. ur confusin me. he's ur own fren.
n now dis. just shoot me lahh!

ok. this shall be the LAST post on dis blog.
afta exam. erase all the memories here n move on.
yay! too much memories in here.
must DELETE! ~whoots.
feelin so high. (:

oK. afta exams ive got a lot of things to do ardy.
really. FUN things dat is.
HAHAHA.
i miss my gals!
so yep. goin out wit dem will be one of dem.
n spendin time wit classmates too!
BBALL! ~wheee! cant wait!
*feel so CHEENA. =x hahahs.
n if god permits,
spendin time wit sum special peeps too.
xD hahaha.

okok. so the above is my motivation to study real hard.
i wanna get promoted!
cos i really love my class!
~whee..! geog paper tmr!
all the best peeps!
((:

hahahaha.
i dunno wat to feel.
(:

today went someplace
veryVERY far. ((:
but TIRED.
LOL.
i REFUSE to say so much!
hahaha.
btwn ermmmm....
onli sum ppl ahh. xD

he's NICE!
xD

AHH..
nuts ahh. (:
morning was funny too.
3 GUYS WAITIN. . . . .
LOL. (:

abt youyouYOU.
i dun wanna know. dun wanna care. haha. exam period dun even wanna care. say wat u want to say i just dun wanna tink! ok. but actuali, quite dissapointed wit ur behaviour. but. its ok!

to YOU.
thnx for standing by me! xD
really really. hahas.

exam was okie.
sect1 was super nice.
real life experience! hahaha.
writing writing only stuck when at the endin.
lol. okok.

stop here.
bye! (((:

today was so eventful.y
hahahs.
went to sch again wit him! (:
ehh. the day i stop startin my ntry wit the above sentence means i go nuts ardy.
hahaha.
sch was ok.
i really dread maths lessons.
dunno why.
i want more science. LOL.
ok ahh. den sumtin tragic happen. ):
BUT. saw sumtin.
VERY HAPPY AGAIN.
xD

today was supposed to be GREAT.
went to sch again wit him! (:
yaa. damn early sia. lols.
but doesnt matter.
very very noisy morning indeed.
hahs.

HANYANG.
though u disturb me time n again.
today. ur the best! (:
hahas. thnx!!

so went home.
ahh. i miss my gals.
been neglecting them.
): sorry. loads to story ok?
hahs. otw home.
a few things happen.
upset at 1st but now.......
HAPPY. hahas.
VERY HAPPY. ((:
thnx ahh! (:

ok. off to screw the damn
chem n physics to my brain!
~adios. amigos.

sumhow.
i'll tink i'll love tmr more.
(:

VOTE FOR
HADY!!
(:

ok. im contented. (:
haha. went sch wit him.
ahhhhhh.
n the whole class knows.
damn. haha. (:

ah, cannot write much cos later dey come my blog.
hahas.

today. was nice also.
talk to *******!
afta so long............. (:
yeah. so despite all the class makin noise.
today was NICE.
hahaha.

ahaha.
ok today was okie lahh.
today just rock! ((:
hahaha.
lessons was okie lahh.
and den afta sch ya...
went out to get han yang present wit him.
ok. identity is discreet cos secret lahh..
hahs. and den. only god knows how sway we were today.
we met so many ppl we didnt want to.
n everybodys makin so much noise.
hahahaha.

niwae.
the presence of u today didnt bring down any of us ok?
so dun try!!! =x
cos u alwaes fail when u do.
=x heh.
tmr! a new day awaits.
DIFFERENTLY.
nyaha. gtg.
bye!

i really dun want to post today.
BUT. i just got to get dis off my chest.
when.WHEN? will ppl just let me haf my happiness.
i dunno why seein sumtin today hit me so hard.
but i really dun want to care but i just did.
its like ur purposely tryin to steal him frm me.
ok.LITERALLY.
bleahh! i feel so sad. ):
last time also u did the same.
not now. PLS.
cos i really really **k* him.
)): stop it gal.
i just dun wanna be angry cos ur my fren.
haiz..................

BUT. heh.
he just talked to me.
(((((((:

i'm pissed off!
arghhhh! u fuckin bastard. dun come into my life to spoil it! damnDAMNDAMNIT! bloody son of bitch. cowardice fucker. god. i dun need u lahh! so stop intefering my life. gosh!! i need to tell somebody bout dis! ahhhhhh! but i dunno who! u suck lahh! u suck in lovin ppl n makin ppl feel good! damn it. argh!

ok lahh.
nvr go back to ur EX-es unless dey realli mean it when they say they've chnge!
bleahhH! ):
make me so upset.
n geog sucks ok!
NVR NVR in ur entire life take up geog!
wat are all those bearings n gradient n wateva shit nots for??!
GEOGRAPHY SUCKS!
shud haf taken accounts or lit man so i cud avoid dis sub!
bleahhh.!
HISTORY ROCKS. u onli memorise n listen.
geog DOES NOT ROCK!
the subject dun nor the teacher.
ok. i got notin against the teacher but onli the sub.!!!!
ahh. fuckin thing.
i dun know nuts man!
i wanna past combine humans but HOW????
geog just suck ahh!
i want more history lessons!!!!
MOREMORE.
less of maths. n geog.
its drivin me nuts.
i need help in chem n phy too!
wat the shit is heat capacity man.!
dang. the MOLE-Y concept!
wateva is dat too??
ahhhh! so stress!

ok. so darn bored.
gotta study maths.
ahh. like no time to study other sub.
): boo~!

aniwae. ahh.
der's a monster in my life!
argh! its abt the EX lahh.
eh. i dun want u cann?
stop ur bullshit lahh.
im over u!!
n u have no right to scold me if i havent forget abt my past.
so pissed dat i've to like publish it here.
ah. heck. its MY blog.
dun act like ur one romeo dat can leave ur shit everywhere.
argh. DAMN it.

but. hahahaha.
YOU made it better though!
why must i do my IC on tues!
if not........ haha. (:
friday ok?
-ok. set! ((:

im lovin every bit of my life cos ive take everytin in my stride n look at the greener side of life. of course the pass is stil clinging on strongly to me still. its hard. but der 1001 and things to do before i tink obut dis again. yes. there are challenges. but if this challenges dun break, dey just make u stronger.
(:

"u dun haf to be cool,
to melt my world."

school has been oh-so-bad.
gahh. i studied so hard for physics,
but i tink i screwed up.
so damn fuck up wit myself! ):

life is ironical.
really. soo many ironies.
hmm.. puzzling.
MrKamal's talk on race n religioun elevated my thoughts to a new level.
~woah! race n religion is only a word dat divide the human race.
to the extent dat ppl look down on each other.
hmm.. wat he said was true.
ahh. better not say everytin.
its such a sensitive issue. (:
i love his lessons. hahas.

sch has been a cool also.
haha. *irony.
i dunno whether i shud put in hopes.
cos it seems so near but yet so far.
hmm. nvm.
tinkin of you you YOU.
makes me happy n light.
it makes me forget the fugly past.
i like the feeling but sumhow................
(:

hanyang. stop ur nonsense.
or u only get a BIONICLE.
hahahaha. =p

but on top of EVERYTIN.
i wanna pass!!!! ahh.
study like mad liao dis few days.
cant afford to slack. though now i am.
hahaha. okok.
stop here ahhh.
BYE! (:

"this cud be the start of something new.

it feels so right to be here with you.

and now looking in ur eyes,

i feel in my heart the start of sumtin new."

wat i felt today was unexpected.
hahahaa.
ok. performance was tirin!
"who wat huh!"
damn fun ahh..
reminds me of sec2 camp. lols.
aniwae. didnt bring my phone so cudnt wait to go back band room.

so reach band rm, quickly switch on,
den.. haha!. ((:
all smiles can?
((: haha.. dun get horny while watchin ok?
hahaha. HAPPY LAHH!!!!
~wheeee! (:
ok. stop here.
bye! (:

"the comeback of the EX."

i'm over the moon!~
haha. (:
cos. ya. u got the hint eh?
n ya.. though it was late.
thnx for the wish. haha.
i like! but dats not the no.1 reason.

hahaha. secret lahh.
((:
mrDUCKY. rox! (:
ahhhhh.
"knape awak cute?"
~bleah... (((:

ok. i miss ma GALS.
a shoutout to IZ esp!!
haha.. ko mcm kwn distant aku plak!
hahaha. MISS YOU!

eh. stop here.
got a feelin my V3i's gonna be taken away today.
n i'll be back to sch wit the sucky 3100.
band was fun too!
"PARADE OF THE CHICKENS."
ahahaha. our dear SC is funny.
LOLS.

shud i stay or shud i go?

hoho. so many things to say!!
ok. wait. BDAE WAS A BLAST!
((: thnx for the wishes.

farihin.shikin.WANI.
guonian.iskandar.yuhting.
azimah.shafiq.nafisah.firqin.renee.fizzah.
zin.iz.yana.rudy
-thnx for the wishes!

audrey.yeihern.JARAD.lanlan.nic.cheltton
-thnx for the jersey!

WENJING.JAZREEL.
KEXUAN.JASMINE.XINYI
LIYANA.EDWARD.BENGHOW.
-thnx for the splendid day today!
BBALL ROX! ((:
luv u guys so so so much.

MARCUS.
-thnx for the present n all lahh.
(=

my FAMILY.
V3i ahh i got! haha. (:
happy! ~lalalas.
NICE day spent wit all of ya.

ok.. but on top of all.
im just sad over ONE thing.
dat one person i wait n wait n wait to msg didnt.
): blardy sad ahh.
haiz. i wanna forget lahh. realli.
at the end of the day all i get is disappointment.
gahh. wateva lah. )):
was it just so difficult to do it?
i cannot get angry. i musnt.
im just sad. cant beleive after so long,
u did forget about my bdae.

"kenape awak CUTE?"

ahh. im feelin like a 3 yr old kid gettin candy.
((: han yang suck lahh.
i DO NOT like a rich ********** boy.
omg. haha. i really dunno wat im feelin.

cant wait for tmr.
hahha. MY BDAE! ((:
yay! hahahs.
hope its not the worst bdae lahh.
haha. got reasons. (:

my hp was SOLD.
no final gdbye to memories.
i know dis was comin.
dat ONE single msg dat told me how u feel.
dat NITE.
dat very DAY.
i lost dat msg. GONE.

"sori i msg. tapi i takut shafiq dngr. actuali i ader suke u sikit."

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i want dat msg back. just dat msg!
PLS. ):

i should be happy. =s

~whoo!
wat a real hectic wk.
tgiS. haha. *thank god its SUNDAY*
yayness. awaken by Marcus's msg.
ahaha. idiot. (:

TOKYO KOSEI WKSHP.
~wheee!
yesyes. although i went alone,
it was worth it. yeah. (=
effort going der was really worth it.
BUT. money no lahh.
kinda simple but really useful.
MR MIURA. whoa! *impress*
his vibrato damn solid ahh! ((:
and i cant even do one.. whoa.....
they really pro lahh.
can even form a band wit eupho only.
like how cool?? haha..
they sold dis karaoke bk dat can play alot of eupho solo,
really wanted to buy it but so ex.
n didnt tink it was worth it since i dun haf the luxury of bringin my inst back home.
): so sadded.
ANIWAE. it was COOL!
hell yeah. (:

thought me dat i still got a lot to learn frm.
seriuosly. so many more better euphoniumist.
so many more ways to improve.
and im glad i went der. ((:
tnx to MChew for makin me feel guilty so dat i went der.
ahh. i wanna watch the TOKYO KOSEI band an stage.
one day. my god! trully a great eye opener.
learnt to be independant too since i went der alone.
no fren! haha. =x

aniwae. when i went der der was dis ACJC guy.
so cute! haha. he help me all the way up.
hoho. he ask me alot of things n im astounded by his enthusiasm to just no more even if it was frm a sec3 gal.
he ask me whether i know feroz n luqman.
apparantly, e also know dat MChew like to play jazz.
i dunno how hte hell he knows.
haha. but! ya. thnx ACJC guy! so cute!
if only got more kind soul! (:
and ACS(I) is HUGE!
like really darn BIG!
not mentioning, its a cool campus!
the toilets haf automatic sink lahh! haha.

ok. gotta go do MATHS!

ok. i've nvr felt so touched nor excited till today.
let me get the names rite 1st:

JARAD.cheltton.wenjing.jazreel.

kexuan.jasmine.
lanlan.yeihearn.

kenneth.nicholas.audrey.

to all the above.
I LOVE YOU GUYS ALOT.
let me tell the whole world ok wat u all did. (:
ok. u all know my dieing admiration for the GERMANY team rite?? soo.. at 1st i had the pathetic fake jersey which the material is so fake. haha. butBUT. these guys buy for me the ORIGINAL GERMANY FOOTBALL JERSEY for my bdae! ahhhh. (((: how happy i am?? SO HAPPY! nvr haf i come across dis ppl who like buy sumtin i really wanted. i mean.. gosh. i just love it lahh k. words cannot express my gratitude. i luv dat jersey alot. its hanging at the foot of my bed and i feel like wearing it to sleep. my god.. im so ecstatic, overjoyed, touched. the class gang. the recess family. LOVE U GUYS ALOT! ((((((:

special mention to JARAD.
my god. didnt know u wud rmb.
u went dat xtra mile.. THANX.
((: GREAT GUY man.
JARAD ROCKS! (=

to WANI:
ur present though simple,

its the thought dat counts ok?
luv ya lil-SIS! (:

ok. FYI:
my bdae is NOT today.
haha. its on wednesday.
still damn loooong. haha.
but ya.. THNX ALOT AH.
best BDAE EVER..
hope we go out celebrate on the

day itself wit the classmates.
~yay!! =D

and wateva hapen ytd.
stressful. BUT.
wat i like bout dis conflicts is dat

it just makes the 4 of us stronger.
ZIYL. my LIFEline. (:
love u guys alot man!

at the end of the ntry.
i just realise dat im bless in many ways.
i say it b4 and i want to say it again.
its ok if i dun haf u know.
mayb. JUST maybe.
the grass is greener on the other side.

"when u love sumone, u would haf to sacrifice

sumtin for dem in order to make dem happy."

and so now i know,
i perfectly understand why.
(:

iHATEdisfeeling. ):
"kau pergi jua setelah cinta ku ini membara."

iMISSyou. so fuckin much.
shudnt haf gone to dat blog.
NO. ahhh. forget dat fugly past.

u made me stronger in so many ways.
but afta readin dat particular blog, did u reali made me stronger or weaker? i dunno. LOST. no. i havent forgottn u, i dunno when i will. im scared n angry i DUNNO.

andandAND...
i shall NOT borrow my phone to anybody.
i am so SCARED of losin the only memories.
): TWICE ardy it happen.
iz i dun blame you. seriously. (:

i dun wanna say anymore.
CHELTTON.
im sorry ok?

HIM?
no more... itsNEVERpossible.

ok. so many things to say..
lets start frm andrea party which was ytd.
so FUN!! ahaha.
CONDO is soo freakin cool!
andrea! nxt yr invite me again ok!
lol. okok. was rushin here n der. met chel, jing n jarad den headed to andreas party. so many ppl were der. haha. 3E4 ROX!! haha. dey kept callin me thier maid! =.-" haha. marcus kena so many times durin the game. n he gaf dat pathetic look! so cute ah! lols. me, jaz, jas n xuan kept playin "chi-ko-pak". ahakz.. so lame ahh. shaiz n bowen join us den many many also. games was not bad ahh. cake n food was damn nice ahh! but the swiss ppl like very anti-social! haha. damn shit ahh. went back ard 10+. so tired ahh. pradeep! pay me $6 ahh! hahs. (: overall it was a nice nite wit the class ahh. so cool. not mentioning sumtins here n der!
i likeeee!! =D

ok. den today went to S.I ROADSHOW!
so cool! hahaaa. ((:
HADY so CUTE!
JOAKIM more cute!!!! =D
wayWAYWAY cute ler... hahas.
he went to sign at the board his signature den got "staying strong." woah. he's so brave to brave through all the criticism. but nvm lahh. at least he persevere's. gd job man! (: ok. like AS IF he reads my blog. nyaha. den makan den headed home wit jasmine. (: FUN day.

overall! i love both days ALOT.
thnx DAD for allowin me to go to th party! ((:
i love friday soSOSO much!

; dimples_! (((:
p.s: FAEZAH! DIMPLES ARE NOT WEIRD. DEY ARE CUTE! xD

did he chnge his bag bcos of sumtin i said?
hmm.. (:

im feelin no better den ytd.
ahh. fuck. sriously. i feel like.....
~bleah.!
ONE STUPID SENTENCE, ruin everythin.
dang it. i soSOSO hate myself.
gahh. wateva i said ytd was honest BUT, not really frm the heart lah.
ngah mengamok uhh. lols.

i cant go andreas party.
so many reason seh why i angry:
1) CONDO leh!! havnt i emphasis how much i love condos???!! argh. the swimming pool. the gym! gahh. i so love CONDOS. let me go der!! pls. CONDO rox man! ARGH!
2) NOBODY knows bout dis but got secret reason ahh. *shh*
3) food! glorious food!
4) does ang moh who will be der! gahh!!!
5) and i ardy shared the present money. so sadded right if cant gf the present!
i feel like rippin sumtin appart. cos im blardy fuming mad cos........
AHH! lets no say it lahh. bye!

ah. im tired like hell.
hist project not done.
CH father nice ahh. blanja us pizza. (:
mly mock paper tmr.
chem test which i know ZILCH of.
phy practical which i left all the notes in sch.
amths trigo dat i seriously dun haf confidence cos the blody nic took all my papers! GAHH!
geog test which i desperately need to pass!
5 BLOODY TESSSSSSST!
so much for whole wk only 3 test!
TLL drives us nuts!
dis post is bloody random ah!

BUT.

iLOVEtoday!
haha.

; dimples_! ((:

my god.. im exhusted.
two nites in hospital. gahh..
wat an experience. lols.
the nurses der were so NICE!
ahh.. NUH NURSES ARE NICE!
must write feedback! haha. ((:

feel so nice also..
haha. ppl chaffeur me ard.
haha. biaselahh, org tkde car.
lols. thnx iz for the ride to sch dat day!
i swear i was so tired n u saved me!
(:

der was dis gila man who happy happy walk into girls ward. iwas scared. DUH. =x haha den kena scolded by nurse.den der was dis other chi. man who keeps walkin for hours w/o rest!! haha. so power man. btw, hes a patient! haha. wat an irony.

ok. haf to go chao hongs house do project.
bloody tired.
all the way to jurong eh n shaiz also happyhappy put the notes in sch.
HOW?? lols.
ok. xtra ppl i wanna thank:
IZ.ZIN.COUSINS.WEITING.YUHTING.
hoho. nice ppl ard me. i like!! (:

ok. gtg. bye!!

aite. ok.
i dunno where to start but its been a hard day.
didnt go sch. went to hospital.
alot of ppl i wanna thank.
KENNETH.CHELTTON.WENJING.
IZZATI.ZIN.
AUNTIESnUNCLES.

well not many ppl know bout dis but if u guys know, pls pray for my mum aites. her op. took less than 10 hrs and shes fine. may god bless her and may she haf a speedy recovery. amin.

i felt so depressed dat i broke down so many times.
thanx to my family and frens alot.
wat im goin through now will make me stronger.
insyaallah.

-LIFE'S SHORT.-

; i wish i cud just "picit" u just now.
):

i was revising my peribahase.
and SUDDENLY.
i had the urge to go online.
and and when i did,
i felt like i was goin to be HULK.
hahaha. butbutBUT!
im tryin sumtin new called:
"acceptin others no matter how fuckin much u wish they werent born."
yeah. gd rite? eliminate all those freaky feelings of jealousy and agony.
nyaha. aite.
im still burning wit anger though.
but laugh the bloody angryness outta urself.
hahahahahaha!

ahaha. HISTORIANS doin the BANDIT.

love MR KAMAL loads.

one of the many many many reasons why history ROCKS!

n i luv his kids. haha.

look at HM!! haha. darn slow lahh he!

ok. so bored today.
PLAN to study the whole day.
ahaha. notin much to say lahh.
oh. btw. is PJC good?

ahh.. JC life seems like fun.
but its a long long long way to go...
=x i wanna go JC.
but i dun wanna go to the shitty ones.
ahaha. but even if i do den im thankful lahh.
but if realli wanna go JC might as well go for the gd gd ones.
spech day hinted me alot.
n i see a particular senior on the stage,
im like: "if she can do it den i can do it to!"
hmm.. but den if i dun go JC where i want to go?
i told mum cannot go JC den go SHATEC.
cooking, baking, hotel mangement.
dat kinda things i like..
those things i at least haf passion.
o's nxt yr. *prays hard to get promoted!*
shud realli buck up if wanna get those distinctions.
not too late.......
RITE? =x

gahh. why am i talkin bout dis??
hahaha.

bloggers bein nice! haha. pics! frm long long ago.

ISTANA PERFORMANCE.

me, jas n naf. ((:

we look so cool lah.

look at my rank!! nyaha.

GERMAN GUY AND US!

haha. look at those bright smile! ((:

not everyday get to see PURE GERMANS!

nyaha. ;)

RACIAL HARMANY DAY.

me, bram, zheng kang, warren, iz, zin, frqin.

mly exp ppl! haha

NICE N SWEEET PIC. love 'em! ((:

NDP PREVIEW DAY.

me n iz went der. haha. FUN!

pic of the parade. ~cool. ((:

fireworks! haha. we were so close! (:the 2 besties. love HER. HAPPY NATIONAL DAY S'PORE!

its ok if dun haf u now. thnx for everytin today. ((:

; cos it makes me smile to see u happy.

hey.. so long time nvr blog.
been busy studyin. hai...
is no more her.
she's sumone else.

im TIRED.
tired of everytin ard me.
for so long i haf not lamented bout my life.

first thing:
i feel bored of listenin to ppl probs.
i know i sound abit sellfish but dats how i feel lahh. im alwaes at the receivin end like as if i dun haf my own probs. so now my ears are reserved for very very special like ZIYL, 3E4 peeps, my adk angkts and my family. im anti-socialisin. i wanna disconnect frm everybody cos im just too exhausted. sec3 life just prevents u frm doin anytin anymore.

2nd thing:
Band. i broke down while takin sectionals. ders just so many odds against me. not against me but my dreams. mayb only kenneth understand dis. well, so be it. i still wanna say it. its just dat wat do u do when the only thing dat u love all ur life starts to turn its back on u. wat do u do when u just cant do anytin bout ur dreams. wat happens when u tried ur best but it just doesnt work. WAT HAPPENS WHEN WAT U'VE BEEN WORKIN SO HARD ON GIFS UP ON U. if the whole sect wanna quit. i dunno wat to say. i feel so much for band dat just when i want to releive lovin band the way i used to, everytin gets so so wrong.

3rd thing:
ZIYL. we need to talk. dats it.

4th thing:
dis few wks i duno why but i keep thinkin bout dat VERY old past. it just gets back on u everytime u try not to. i feel so exhausted. if only we cud go back in time back to when i didnt even know u at all. den mayb things wud be diff. ive passed the point of lovin u n hatin u. im just thinkin wat went wrong. cos it wasnt just all about u, but afta everytin disappeared my life too wasnt the way it was. like izzati said, why cudn't it be simple. like a b c's...

5th thing:
and to add to all dis. its true. sumtin has made a big impact on my family. i dun wanna say it hear. only iz know bout dis. but i just hope things dun take a turn for the worse. it happened before. NEVER wud i wanna go through dat same pain n wrenching period wit my family.

BUT. sumhow... ive been studyin better. haha. when i'm stress-free i cant study much but when im in dis state, i study better. i really hope i pass trigo test and physics or i rathe go n die. =x ~bleahs. such a loong post. stop here. bye.. :