. its an end.

hey peeps! just came back frm band. n was blog hoppin den read yuh tings blog. hah. n i rmbered dat dis might be my last ntry for 2005. heh. yep. cos tmr i goin msia. its gonna be a real long one. haha. as usual. some reflections. so skip it if u want to. scared some of you moved to tears la. lol. k.

well. dis yr. hard i must say. january was my best mnth for dis yr. heh. still rmb dat day he sent me home. wow! haha. cannot describe ar the feeling. really best. but then things worsen btwn us n leads to wat we are now. as much as i dun wanna talk about it, i just want to let it out la. not all but most. after all, its been in me for 1 yr leh. hah.

february: still rmbered dat day i found out about both of u. n i found out everything by myself. haiz. but i was proud myself. den realise no matter how sad i was, i must accept facts eh? n dat time. i really thank ZIYL for bein der for me. i will nvr forget everythin we've been thru. no matter how many times i get upset over some things among us, i will always rmb our times tgther. n dat fight we had when der was 5 of us. yeah. it was cruel but i will nvr forget the other mmber. rmb dat time we cried in hmt class bcos of sum1? yup. dat we'll be the day i'll nvr forget.

april: SYF '05. i'll nvr forget dat period n the day itself. SWISS WINDS ROCKED THE HALL AGAIN! n i will nvr forget dat moment we all just jumped as one band when we knew abt the GWH. n for the 1st time i cried tears of joy. it was the best thing in my life! =) dat time too was the hardest for me. reality began setting in and realise the real hard facts of life. the stress at dat time was really argh. cannot manage ar but again thanx to my gals. i became better. heh.

aiya. i think if wanna write everything until tmr also wont finish. just too sum up i reall luv my frens my family n swiss winds. n my resolution would be to pass maths no matter wat. yeah. i will try my hardest n i wanna do my parents proud. yep.

about relationships. if u ask me whether i gif up ardy? the answer is no. haha. i'll wait n wait n wait until mayb i found sum1 better than him which is like impossible. ever heard of: "the perfect one only comes once n for awhile"? hahh. dats so damn true. lol. i'm not gonna be thick skin la n say dis n dat but i mean he ardy found his happiness. n i've nvr blamed anyone but myself for dis. hah. just hope one day god will gif me the light. heh. so yup.

ZIYL. just hope we'll bond better n face wateva comes in our way okie. in times to come, lets hope we stick wit each other always. muacks for all 3 of u! =)

my family. hah. yup. i luv dem. though now my sister workin, i miss those times together. hah. but i think my family has bonded closer n no one can be as good as my dad. luv him so much. i know he cares for me n i luv him! haha. my mum. she's the best la! hah. luv dem all.

not forgettin my dearest 2E5. yep. dis class has been real great to me. Mr seng the best form teacher ever. yep. thanx for trusting me to lead the class. n the whole bunch of ppl i have to love. hah. yup. the teachers as well. we've bonded for two yrs n i'll nvr forget dem. frm rusty rabbits to nicholas n dora n all la. haha. will miss u guys. =)

woah. okie. i think dis is very long la. haha. niwae, today went for band den went to JP. haha. life's gd when u enjoy it. sakinah is the most cutest women on earth la! haha. shall not say wat happen. hah. den went home den guess who i saw?? haha. my crush! haha. my neighbour rather. haha. he very handsome ar! haha. i like. den he smiled to me so i guess todays not dat bad! haha. n bloggers bein mean. my pictures dont come out. damn. haha. k lah shall stop here. byezz!!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

. its a need.

hey ppl. gd morning. i feelin very bored n lonely ar. y?? very depressing sia. haiz. nvm. ytd had band. alah. very bored la. dun feel like goin band seh. but nvm. must just work hard. ytd. aisyah calld and ask me whther want see marsiling band play. i wanna see them play la but nobody to accompany. damn bored la. wanna ask my gals to go out too but dey as usual cant be contacted. damn. i wish my brothers are old enough so i can bring dem out n stuff. its bored in here. REALLY. haiz. k la. i stop here. notin to say.

~byez.!

. jinggle all the way.

hoho. dis might be a lil late but Merry Christmas! lol. ok. havent update for a long time. lets start frm saturday ya.

on saturday. my family excludin my sis when to east coast. yeah. soo fun la! haha. long time nvr swim ar. my bro all veh cute. luv dem to bits. i prepared food! heh. i know how to cook ppl. lol. den head down to east coast n in the bus, it rain. -.- hah. so we sat under dis block n we look so pathetic la. haha. took pictures n finished a third of the picnic food. lol. but den the rain stopped n den we headed for the beach. nice man. was thinkin bout sum stuff but nah. didnt want to spoil my mood so i didnt really think dat much. mum n dad so romantic la. aww~~. hahs. afta the picnic, headed for causway, buy food den home sweet home. =)

on sunday, accompany mum to sheng siong. =.-" hah. but actually fun la. bought loads of cheap cheap stuff den headed home. at home, celebrated amri's bdae. alamak. dat guy cute like hell la. haha. bought for him dis teddy bear. haha. cute la. love my bro to bits! *mmuuaahh! haha.

on monday, which was ytd. went TOWN!!! haha. went der wit yana. cudnt get iz n zin. sorry gals. but nevertheless, me n yana had so much fun uh! haha. 1st we went to far east plaza der. wanted to find bag. she found hers at only $15 leh. so cheap. hah. tried to find mine but to no avail la. so bored. but i bought dis diary at paper people. so nice la! i like. but very pink! lol. den afta dat went kfc and had lunch. haha. talk so much la to catch up on our lives. ooh ya. saw yuh ting too! haha. she workin but dunno she saw me or not! lol. den afta dat headed to pacific plaza. went to all the surfer's shop la. haha. very fun. still cudnt find wat i wanted la. so bored! den went to wisma. *memories* -walked ard der still cannot find wat i want. so wanted to go heeren but den we took the wrong turn. haha. tk tau jln lah katekn. lol. so at last when forum. haha. go toys r us. very funny la. den afta dat, when coffee bean den when back to wisma den went causewaypoint. went to power 9 den got my bag!!! haha. i luv it la. billabong bag. $49.90. hah. i luv luv luv it la! haha. very plain but i like! haha. den the sales gal very frenly la. ask me buy more billabong stuff. ended buyin dis water bottle. hah. veh funny. come to tink of it, i got so many billabong stuff sia! haha. crazy ardy. so den went back home! ~whee.! i luv dat day. =D

TODAY. didnt do much. want complete all my holiday assignment. alot sia. hahs. n dis ntry so long. sorry la ppl. better write dis stuff den those depressing ones rite? hahs. so yup. dats all folks. ~ adioz! =))

p.s: my bag rocks!! hah. =)

. tired.

hey peeps. just came back frm band, tiring day. during band sumtin happen ar. u, pls. PLS. dun flirt! i'mso disgusted la. saw azimah afta parade den broke down while tellin her wat i saw. i cudnt bare it la. its like why she must like dat? its damn unfair la. afta band, quickly went home. met my very close friend. his kind la. ate n talk to him abt evrything. thank god he's der. his gal so lucky. afta ate, went home n hear i am. i'm really trying my best. really seriously. haiz. k la. stop here. byez.

= i wanna tell u everythin. evrythin...

hello ppl. i'm bored la. later goin out to causeway. guess wat. just read all my previous post and my other rotted blog. man. der was so much happy and sad things in those stuff. most of it was abt him. haiz. i just wish ar. i just wish... argh. the most depressing one was durin SYF period. so much memories. argh. u know wat. now, i wish i havent read all those stuff. ders just too much in those entries. too much. n actually wanted go ut today but den ya la. friends.. really wonder wat dey do u know. dey say dey miss u but den when u msg dem, dey dont reply and the other has sumtin on. dun even talk bout the other. oh hell. everythins crushin. might as well die n ur i miss u's dun mean a thang after all rite? damn. no. i'm not scoldin or blamin anyone. i'm just feeling so urmm.. complicated?? yes. dats it. i'll stop here la b4 i blabber more nonsense. byez.

*just rmb us at our best.

. i'm not gonna lie.

hello peeps! yep. back frm band camp at NCC HQ. was okie lar. as expected, average. not so much fun but on the whole ok la. der was a lot of band prac and dat was tirin. drills was killin me la. but the food was GREAT! haha. actually the bunks also okie lar. n one thing 4 sure dat place luv steep stairs! haha. serious la. got so many steps so steep. came back ytd straight away sleep. frm 6 p.m. to 6 a.m ar. hahs. 12 hrs sleep den today wake up so early. cannot sleep anymore. lol. urmm. wat else ar. tink dats it la. not much to say. 2nd nite, b4 i sleep, i rmbered sumtin. dun wanna tok abt it. n to sumone, dun even try ya. cos i'm over u and der's only one person dat if ever he comes back, den i'll be happy. not u. so pls. dun even try. n last but not least. SWISS WINDS RAWKSS!!! =)

LONELY.

Hello peeps! god. i'm so bored. i'm all alone at nite. my whole family went orchard sia. haha. so since i'm bored i'll write wateva happened ytd n today! hahs.

ytd was performance at Taka. Orchard. heh. went skul wit azimah. oh earlier went cosway and shop! haha. very fun lah my mum. ate at KFC. den met azimah and we were off to school la. den in the bus to orchard, sat opposite jolene n azimah n luqman. man. the cornets all are darn crappy! haha. den reach the place and den had dinner. only cud find KFC to eat. so dat was like two times KFC leh. ate very lil onli cos not much time also. den performance was great ar! hah. oh ya. passed by WISMA! gosh. rmbered so much sia but just looked on the bright side. heh. alot of ppl praised us. but i tink ppl need to learn how to clap ar. =x saw alot of seniors too! haha. miss dem la. so den went home. in the bus was okie la. didnt notice my wallet drop. azimah took it den i only found out went in the bandroom. hahs. i feel so DUMB. lols. but ytd was great la. i luv SWISS WINDS! =)

today. hah. more fun la. went out wit my family to causeway point. had dinner at seoul garden ar! hehs. ate so much den went courts. actually wanted to buy dis Plasma TV den skali der was dis auction goin on. den my parents join the bid ar. very fun la! at last we won the bid for dis juice maker and a laptop! ~whee. haha. very exciting ar. the laptop actual price was $2400 plus but we got it at $1000 plus only. lols. den went home. had dinner den my parents left for orchard. dey want see christmas lights. =.-" haha. didnt wanna join cos was tired and i just went der ytd so not much diff. so den at home, watched The Santa Claus 2, Mean Girls n halfway watch Lord of The Rings. woahs. so now i very tired ar n feelin rather lonely. haha. wanna watch some more tv den i switch off for the day.

so yep. dats was my long lo0ng ntry. lols. aites. i stop here. MERRY CHRISTMAS ya? =) ~adioz!

. less words.

~aww. i miss this gals man! when can we go out togeder?? argh. miss u guys a hell load. must go out nxt wk aite?? haish. okie. today's been real boring. went jogging! hahs. very bored la in the morn den decided to go 4 jog at 7 in the morning lehs!! haha. den went to mosque to pay some stuff den went back home . reached home accompany my sis go down buy things den she blanja me ice-cream. hah. sweetness. den go home. den later either goin town or esplanade. wahas. finally goin out n abt. wanna buy shirts!! heh. n perf dis friday. yeah. haha. at orchard. =x aiya. hope wont tink too much ar. i dun wanna spoil my mood cos its christmas! hahs. k i stop here la. very tired. ~adioz!!

- fake thru it all. but u cant escape my eyes.

ur hinting n hurting me. again. time can prove it all later. its ok for now. haf it ur way but here, i'll do it mine. yup. be happy cos dats wat lifes about. gif it more time n u understand how it looks like to see it all frm here. lonely it may be, torturous it seems but ultimately it would be nicer when the cycle goes the other way around. understand wat i mean n soon u'll know. life's, not alwaes about u, her or i. so go, run along. be happy like the world is cos when it comes to me, it'll be different. and a happiness of a new kind.

. nobody ever took me higher.

me n my mommy! haha. see the flamigoes! hah. they also want to share the limelight la! lol.









me n mom again! =)










me n anwar. we look so dumb. hahs. -.-"











they loo like pink and wihte dots rite? hah. those are flamingoes la. hah. i was frm the god noes wat floor when i took dat. hah. so cudnt really see those adorable creatures. =)








n yup. those are pics for dat day. click on it for bigger view. =)
i'm so bored la. ytd was the same. anyhoos. ders band tmr so i shall look forward to it though ders notin special abt it to look forward too. -.- hah. okie. band camp comin!! ~whee. haha. ok la. maybe i not so xcited cos last yr band camp was the thing dat make it or break it n but eventually it break it all. so still half-hearted to go. havent paid yet n i might just be leavin for god noes where b4 band camp. wahas. i dun haf much more to blog abt la. just dat one thing weird. for 2 freakin straight days which is like ytd nite n saturday's nite, i think bout him to sleep and den i dreamt bout him. haha. for 2 straight nite's ar! how werid n cool rite? haha. both dreams are like soo sweet la. haha. but den again. reality kills, so at the end of the day. its just a dream. heh. all 4 now. ~byezz.!

- everythin started... a year ago.

hello. gosh. damn tired ar. today is 10 december 2005. the day. D-DAY. god. so fast 1 year ardy. niwae, went bird park today! haha. cousins wedding! the view is like god damn nice! if got time i load the pics. started thinkin bout band dinner last yr der. hah. alwaes go toilet den got him. n swiss five perform n stuff. woah. so nice the feeling. =) niwae, ytd was nice. kept laughing. i luv my sect, i luv percussion n i love tuba. haha. w/o dem parades will be like so bored. hahs. poor gayatri alwaes kena disturb. haha.

haiz. n today, was like thanx to family la. if not i cud haf break down anytime. started thinkin of today 1 year ago at orchard.. damn. the best days of my life!! argh. but nvm. ders no use thinkin bout it. rite? least hes happy now. one weird thing i keep thinkin off was wat wud haf happen if things didnt change? haha. of corse its gonna be like living in a fantasy. but sometimes, fantasies end too. rite? well. one quote for the day. "love alwaes exist, it just dies sumtimes." every word means sumtin ar. hah. k ah. the sadness settling in. damn. wanna sleep b4 it gets worse. ~toodles.! =))

; beacuse of you i learnt to play on the safe side so i wont get hurt.. anymore.

. cos we both knew better.

had band! haha. drills were torturous. the headache was like god! but nvm la. tmr mayb wont attend parade. afta band, went home wit azimah. saw ZH. den its like argh. how the hell he know?? stupid sia. hahs. now i wonder how many other peeps know.. gosh. scary. niwae, went eat at long john. den walk2 at causeway point den walked home under the scorchin sun. haha. *crazy* i luv today. i dunno why. hahs. see him many2 times maybe?? haha. k lah. i veh bored la now. chattin wit iz.. stop here for the day. =) ~toodles.

; 2 more days to 10.12.05. *bitter sweet memories.

= just a lil bit more.

aloha peeps! whees. today real tired ar. haha. woke up, bathe den met izzzati to buy skool bks. gdness. darn heavy man those stuff. but i like the new bks. very NEW. -.- haha. cant wait to start the term actually. been doin hmwk like god noes wat. haha. hopefully can finish b4 the last wk of hols. wahas. saw his fren too just now. so "mepek". hahs. sorry for the usage of mly. haha.

n btw, i found out sumtin new! haha. my cousins haf blogs!!! haha. k fine. i know. veh lame. but ya. i know dey haf blogs. haha. on the sadder part of life, havin this blardy sickness. god. very irritating. hope it cures b4 this friday. or i rather die goin thru this sickness like last yr. at this very moment last yr, things when so wrong for my side la. haha. k la. wanna go complete the fuckin assignments. ~ciao! =)

+ alwaes my only one.

helo peeps. so long nvr update. todays like so super duper very bad luck. haish. woke up at 7.30 when band starts at 8. damn it. late again. den when was ready, got dis headache in my brain cos last nite slept like at 5 in the morn. -.- but den still walk to bus stop. den was like cannot tahan, go back home. hahs. reach home, ate breakfast. forget to eat medicine. stupid rite. msg ppl den watch tv den sleep. woke up ard 4. god. i felt like zombie. haha. den wanted to meet sumone but den got no time so yup. i'm here. wanna do hol assignment. yup. so i tink dats my day. still havin dat splittin headache. btw, christmas is coming! yay. haha. love the band songs ar. haha. n still rmb last year. gdness. haha. the best days of my life wit him. =)) aitez. i'll stop here. btw, y do ppl alwaes jugde ppl withour even knowin dem? hahs. wat a weird weird world. toodles~.


; the future depends on the ppl who believe in the beauty of their dreams. *so true. =)

dinner picss!! =D

very candid pic. lol. haha. though the victim was not seen clearly. hahs. azimah knows why. nyaha. =P











luqman n me.. haha. luv dis pic man. =D











the malay gals.. =) lovely.


so der dey are. for more go to the other webbie which is: www.luvteen-pictures.blogspot.com. =))

aites ppl. for any pics at all dat u want frm me, go to dis add: www.luvteen-pictures.blogspot.com. yep. copy and save frm der. so njoy! haha. u want any pics develop, tell me, i'll do it for u but must pay lar of course. hahas. i just savin the trouble for u guys u know. hahs. so yup. dats it. njoy. =))

special. in HIS on ways...

yayness! i'm back. loads to talk bout la. firstly raye was fun. luv the outings. all special to me. esp the band one. yep. luv dat day a hell load. hehs. band dinner last nite! so sad its over. prefered last years one though. it was all about xtreme happiness n sadness. argh. it was all so nice until dat last bit of the nite. took pics n real fun. i want the pics now!!! hah. ok. dunno wat else to blog abt. will miss the seniors ar. haish. how time flies. aites. i'll upload all the pics soon. dun make noise k, den i upload. hahs. n btw, i haf enuf crap in my life rite now, i dun need more. so if its ok, stop hurtin me cos i dun need it. its not like my life is so perfect now. (not directing to anyone in particular ya.) ok. till den. ~adios.